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Letter's to Caleb and Family
nov 2 2005
hey baby,
Its been a long time since i have writte something and im sooo sorry about that..so many
things have changed since you have been gone...me and kateri arent friends ne more.. idk
why but were not.. she doesnt like me ne more caleb i dont know what happen...she wants to
be good friends with jordyn now and i guess jordyn is mad at me so kateri is to...i didnt do ne
thing to her.. god i wish you were still here...my life has gone to hell.... im not happy ne
more...i cant stop crying myslef to sleep...i just want you back...people told me things are
going to get easier as we go but things have just gotten harder... so much harder...i just
want you back... thats all i ever want... i just want to wake up and see you next to my side..i
want to wake up with a smile on my face.. i want to be able to look forward to having
someone to love.. i want you back more then ne one will ever know.. I MISS YOU SOOO
MUCH!! there has not been a day that has gone by that i havent thought about you.. me
and james dont talk ne more...he is always to busy or working.. and all this.. everyone has
just changed so much.. its not even funny.. ever since you left me..left us everyone has
changed... i hate it!!! I hope you havent forgot about me caleb.. you know that i will never
forget you... never in my whole life time.. you will always been in my heart and in my heart
you will stay... ill will wait until the day we get to see each other again.. god i love you caleb..i
do sooooo much...i just want you to know that..never forget that and never forget me... I
LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH!!!!
love you always and forever
your baby
Brittany!
hey baby,
Its been a long time since i have writte something and im sooo sorry about that..so many
things have changed since you have been gone...me and kateri arent friends ne more.. idk
why but were not.. she doesnt like me ne more caleb i dont know what happen...she wants to
be good friends with jordyn now and i guess jordyn is mad at me so kateri is to...i didnt do ne
thing to her.. god i wish you were still here...my life has gone to hell.... im not happy ne
more...i cant stop crying myslef to sleep...i just want you back...people told me things are
going to get easier as we go but things have just gotten harder... so much harder...i just
want you back... thats all i ever want... i just want to wake up and see you next to my side..i
want to wake up with a smile on my face.. i want to be able to look forward to having
someone to love.. i want you back more then ne one will ever know.. I MISS YOU SOOO
MUCH!! there has not been a day that has gone by that i havent thought about you.. me
and james dont talk ne more...he is always to busy or working.. and all this.. everyone has
just changed so much.. its not even funny.. ever since you left me..left us everyone has
changed... i hate it!!! I hope you havent forgot about me caleb.. you know that i will never
forget you... never in my whole life time.. you will always been in my heart and in my heart
you will stay... ill will wait until the day we get to see each other again.. god i love you caleb..i
do sooooo much...i just want you to know that..never forget that and never forget me... I
LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH!!!!
love you always and forever
your baby
Brittany!
Caleb took this picture himself with his
phone the week before his accident !!!
You have to love a kid like this ......
phone the week before his accident !!!
You have to love a kid like this ......
All the Good Die Young
To most people that is just another day in there like, but on that date my life took a turn for the worst me and two of
my friends christopher caleb bradley and another friend we call spud had just got down changing a tire of my truck
and had took off drivening again well spud left before me and caleb. Than me and caleb left and went to meet up
with spud to see where he went i went around a corner and happend to look in my rear-view mirror to see my best
friend losing control of his truck i didnt think nothin of it.....untill one second after that an f-150 truck came around
the same corner coming towards us and couldnt stop in time. The f-150 hit calebs truck right in the drivers door
where he was sitting. I FREAKED i slammed on the breaks jumped outta my truck in the middle of the road and run
up to caleb where at first i went to the drivers door cause thats where u think he would be at....well when i got up to
the truck i realized he had be slung over to the passenger seat so when i got the the passenger door it was stuck at
first so i just pulled as hard as i could and when it final opened caleb feel into my arms and from then on i just held
him and talked to him untill the cops and parmedics got there. When they got their they made me let him go, which i
didnt wanna do at all cause i didnt know if i was ever gonna see my bro again. Well me and spud waited at the crash
site for about an hour cause the cops were not telling us anything, all they were telling me was that i wasent stable
enough to drive. Well i pretty much told the cops to kiss my ass and found out which hospital they were taking him to
so me and spud took off towards the hospital. On the way to the hospital i called calebs girlfriend and a really good
friend of mine i told her what had happend and told her i was comming to get her and were going to the hospital well
when we first got their no one knew anything about his conditions. That night they moved him to a ICU room where
everyone could go in a see him. Well the doctors said they couldnt tell us anything untill they had a nuraligist come
in and look over him well the second day the first one came in and did all the test on him and said he had alot of
bleeding on his brain and that it was swollen really bad and told his mother lynette hendrix to pretty much let him go.
Well when i heard that he had alot of bleeding on his brain i knew that i had or was gonna lose my best friend and
pretty much brother. I didnt wanna say that to anyone cause i didnt wanna make anyone uncomfortable so i keep it
all in, Well i stayed there with him the whole time the first day or so i didnt wanna go in and see him like that cause i
saw my dad in the same way and it almost killed me. But after someone told me this would prolly be the last time i
would be able to see him and touch him i went in and sat with him for as long as i could.. The third and final day the
second doctor came in and did tests on him and found out that he head had took too hard of a blo0w and that he
was brain-dead and wasent gonna get any better. When i heard that i just wanted to crawl up in a ball beside his
hospital bed and die right there but i knew i had to be strong,....i know thats what he would want. Well sometime that
day his dad Gary Bradley came into the waiting room and told everyone to come in and say goodbye to him cause
he wasent gonna come back to us that he was brain-dead. That was so hard, that is the worst feeling in ur life to say
goodbye to someone that u loved SO DAMN MUCH. After everyone said there goodbyes they took him off life
support and his dad said he held him in his arms untill his heart stopped beating....from Feb. 31 2005 untill Mar. 2
2005 those were the worst days of my life. I had lost not only a really good friend but a brother also...
IN LOVING MEMORY OF CHRISTOPHER CALEB BRADLEY
11/26/87 - 03/02/05
I LOVE U BRO
BRADLEY BOYS 4 LIFE
To most people that is just another day in there like, but on that date my life took a turn for the worst me and two of
my friends christopher caleb bradley and another friend we call spud had just got down changing a tire of my truck
and had took off drivening again well spud left before me and caleb. Than me and caleb left and went to meet up
with spud to see where he went i went around a corner and happend to look in my rear-view mirror to see my best
friend losing control of his truck i didnt think nothin of it.....untill one second after that an f-150 truck came around
the same corner coming towards us and couldnt stop in time. The f-150 hit calebs truck right in the drivers door
where he was sitting. I FREAKED i slammed on the breaks jumped outta my truck in the middle of the road and run
up to caleb where at first i went to the drivers door cause thats where u think he would be at....well when i got up to
the truck i realized he had be slung over to the passenger seat so when i got the the passenger door it was stuck at
first so i just pulled as hard as i could and when it final opened caleb feel into my arms and from then on i just held
him and talked to him untill the cops and parmedics got there. When they got their they made me let him go, which i
didnt wanna do at all cause i didnt know if i was ever gonna see my bro again. Well me and spud waited at the crash
site for about an hour cause the cops were not telling us anything, all they were telling me was that i wasent stable
enough to drive. Well i pretty much told the cops to kiss my ass and found out which hospital they were taking him to
so me and spud took off towards the hospital. On the way to the hospital i called calebs girlfriend and a really good
friend of mine i told her what had happend and told her i was comming to get her and were going to the hospital well
when we first got their no one knew anything about his conditions. That night they moved him to a ICU room where
everyone could go in a see him. Well the doctors said they couldnt tell us anything untill they had a nuraligist come
in and look over him well the second day the first one came in and did all the test on him and said he had alot of
bleeding on his brain and that it was swollen really bad and told his mother lynette hendrix to pretty much let him go.
Well when i heard that he had alot of bleeding on his brain i knew that i had or was gonna lose my best friend and
pretty much brother. I didnt wanna say that to anyone cause i didnt wanna make anyone uncomfortable so i keep it
all in, Well i stayed there with him the whole time the first day or so i didnt wanna go in and see him like that cause i
saw my dad in the same way and it almost killed me. But after someone told me this would prolly be the last time i
would be able to see him and touch him i went in and sat with him for as long as i could.. The third and final day the
second doctor came in and did tests on him and found out that he head had took too hard of a blo0w and that he
was brain-dead and wasent gonna get any better. When i heard that i just wanted to crawl up in a ball beside his
hospital bed and die right there but i knew i had to be strong,....i know thats what he would want. Well sometime that
day his dad Gary Bradley came into the waiting room and told everyone to come in and say goodbye to him cause
he wasent gonna come back to us that he was brain-dead. That was so hard, that is the worst feeling in ur life to say
goodbye to someone that u loved SO DAMN MUCH. After everyone said there goodbyes they took him off life
support and his dad said he held him in his arms untill his heart stopped beating....from Feb. 31 2005 untill Mar. 2
2005 those were the worst days of my life. I had lost not only a really good friend but a brother also...
IN LOVING MEMORY OF CHRISTOPHER CALEB BRADLEY
11/26/87 - 03/02/05
I LOVE U BRO
BRADLEY BOYS 4 LIFE
Hey Lynette,
It's me i just thought i would write a lil more about your wonderful son!!
First of all that crazy son of yours was very unique in MANY ways!! I can promise you i will never meet anyone that
could even come close to reminding me of Caleb. Every time i seen him he always had this huge grin on his face!
No matter what was going on that day or what had happened, Caleb would be smiling. And that would make me
smile!! He was a terrific kid, he new what life was about and how to have fun! They were always having fun. Wither
it was going to Gainesville to "cruise" or just hanging out like boys do and trying to find something to get into. I
remember plenty of times driving by McDonald's and seeing the whole crew standing out there having a ball in the
parking lot of McDonald's! I know it made me feel good to know my brother really had a true friend that was always
by his side no matter what!!!!!!!!!! I remember this one time me and a friend where out having fun on a Friday
night. This guy called and tried to get something started. I got really upset. I called James first to tell him what was
going and let him know i was going to the boys house!!! Well by the time i got there James and Caleb were already
in the boys drive way!!! It was funny and it made me feel wonderful inside to know my brother and Caleb cared
enough about me to leave whatever the were doing that night to make sure i would be OK!!!!!! It was great!!
Christie
It's me i just thought i would write a lil more about your wonderful son!!
First of all that crazy son of yours was very unique in MANY ways!! I can promise you i will never meet anyone that
could even come close to reminding me of Caleb. Every time i seen him he always had this huge grin on his face!
No matter what was going on that day or what had happened, Caleb would be smiling. And that would make me
smile!! He was a terrific kid, he new what life was about and how to have fun! They were always having fun. Wither
it was going to Gainesville to "cruise" or just hanging out like boys do and trying to find something to get into. I
remember plenty of times driving by McDonald's and seeing the whole crew standing out there having a ball in the
parking lot of McDonald's! I know it made me feel good to know my brother really had a true friend that was always
by his side no matter what!!!!!!!!!! I remember this one time me and a friend where out having fun on a Friday
night. This guy called and tried to get something started. I got really upset. I called James first to tell him what was
going and let him know i was going to the boys house!!! Well by the time i got there James and Caleb were already
in the boys drive way!!! It was funny and it made me feel wonderful inside to know my brother and Caleb cared
enough about me to leave whatever the were doing that night to make sure i would be OK!!!!!! It was great!!
Christie
Caleb,
Theres so much to say but with only so little space. One thing, I will never forget you. You meant and will always mean
so much to me! You were like my best guy friend. I could easily tell you anything and KNOW for a fact that No one
would know. You, out of EVERYONE in our school, are the only guy i know to do that. You looked at people so
differently Caleb. When you were around no one was sad or cried. We never cried around you except now.. this has
been so hard for us all!! Britt espicially. I love her so much Caleb. She's always been there for me and I feel like I cant
be here for her. Im confused in so many ways. How can I help her? Why wont she stop crying Caleb? I miss her smile.
Im beginning to see it more now but those first few weeks I cant even remember seeing a smile. It's so hard to go on
without you, boy. And James. I havent seen anyone as strong and loving as he has been. Your best friend. Brother
more like it. Gosh i can remember before you got your liscense and you and James always came to see me and
brittany at my house. Good Times.. I'll remember them always Caleb
Always~
I love you -Kateri
Theres so much to say but with only so little space. One thing, I will never forget you. You meant and will always mean
so much to me! You were like my best guy friend. I could easily tell you anything and KNOW for a fact that No one
would know. You, out of EVERYONE in our school, are the only guy i know to do that. You looked at people so
differently Caleb. When you were around no one was sad or cried. We never cried around you except now.. this has
been so hard for us all!! Britt espicially. I love her so much Caleb. She's always been there for me and I feel like I cant
be here for her. Im confused in so many ways. How can I help her? Why wont she stop crying Caleb? I miss her smile.
Im beginning to see it more now but those first few weeks I cant even remember seeing a smile. It's so hard to go on
without you, boy. And James. I havent seen anyone as strong and loving as he has been. Your best friend. Brother
more like it. Gosh i can remember before you got your liscense and you and James always came to see me and
brittany at my house. Good Times.. I'll remember them always Caleb
Always~
I love you -Kateri
Dear Caleb,
Here it is almost August and it feels like yesterday you were here!! I just want to let you know you are missed so
much. Everything has changed so much and some is not good. You are thought about daily, you're always with us.
James is getting his truck slowly done, wish you could see it. Your brother misses you!!! As for your mom day by
day for her. I don't know what to say to her? She is very strong and doing her best. I know how she is feeling my
saving grace was having sis and James, when their brother passed away. I wanted to go with him but I had to keep
going for them, but your mom feels lost. Her heart has been ripped out! I can say the pain gets easier everyday but
NEVER goes away. I hope she realizes that she did a damn good job raising you, everybody knows she is a great
parent. Look how you turned out, nobody could ask for a better friend, brother, or son-you're the best. Thanks
MOM Wherever we are in the car or at home you are here. We have your stickers on the cars, your angels above
our visors, and pictures on our dash- I really hope that you see it, and know its because we love and miss you
more than any words could say. I will never understand why he takes the people he does. So much pain, and no
explanation why. On James' truck his license plate is personalized with the day we lost our angel. WE MISS YOU
LOVE YOU
Tammie
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Memories from Melanie
I’ve known Caleb and his parents since 1993, so I would say we are family instead of friends. I’ve often said Lynette
and I raised Caleb and Whitney (my daughter) together. Our kids went to Under the Rainbow Preschool together,
spent many days and nights at the hospital with us, went to the “Donut” school together, countless hours riding
quietly to who knows where for all of us to eat out and survived many trips to Jonesboro and Little Rock while their
mothers had a little bit of retail therapy. I cannot tell you how many nights we spent at the ballpark running between
Caleb and Whitney’s games. For the little while Terry and Amanda (foster kids) lived with us, Caleb and Terry were
inseparable. They looked and acted just like brothers. I was so thankful for Caleb befriending Terry when he
needed a friend most. When Caleb was old enough to stay at home alone after school, I’d call and try to trick him
into telling me he was alone. He always stuck with the code “My mama’s in the bathtub”, which made Lynette proud.
Caleb was always happy kid, but his feelings would get hurt so easily by the smallest thing. He could turn on the
tears like a faucet and just like clockwork we’d hear “Caleb! Quit that damn squalling! You quit it right now!” from
Lynette. We’d all laugh so hard we’d all cry!
We had lots of happy times together and I’m so thankful that we have these memories to keep us laughing and
smiling when we think of Caleb. My heart aches with the thought of the pain this tragedy has caused Gary and
Lynette. This is something no parent should ever have to go through. I know Gary and Lynette are strong people
and hour by hour and day by day, they carry on. I pray every day that the pain will be a little more bearable for
them. Our faith in the Lord is strong and He will carry us through the rough times, all we have to do is lean on Him.
Melanie Burnette
Letter from Taylor
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Hey Caleb,
Whats been going on well nothing much here just thinking of you and knowing that you are never coming back
butthat will be ok because i know deep down in my heart that one day i will get to see you again. Caleb it is going to
be hard not hearing my phone ring this summer and you asking me if you can come over and watch movies. I
remember this one time Me and caleb had just started going out and i had wrote in bright blue and silver paint all
over the door taylor loves caleb. I thought you know caleb will never see this because he had never came to my
house and right after i got done my phone rings and its caleb asking me for the first time if he could come over and
watch a movie and i said yea but give me a hour , so i took white paint and painted over it till this day it still say
everything that it had said that day, Caleb was a very special person and no matter what he will always remain the
number 1 person in my heart!!! I love you Christopher Caleb and you better believe that I use to always make his
dad call him and talk to him when i was at the firedapartment when we were younger i was in love with caleb and till
this day still am . It is about 4:43 a.m. here in newport and i cant sleep because everytime i try to sleep all i can
think about is you. Caleb you just have no clue to how special you are to everyone every time me amber and jack
get together all we basically talk about is you because we were all best friends jack loves you and you know that
yall were never apart during the summer yall were like brothers like that time you and him came and seen me and
brittany mann at the pool and you kept on chasing me around the pool and we fell in.lol.. we had so much fun and
one day we will all be able to make many more memories untill that day i love you caleb and see you soon!!
Love ya always
as long as i live you will never die!!
Taylor Brooke Barker
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I miss ya Caleb
It seems like just yesterday that we met. I will never forget that little cocked smile of yours and that bushy head of
hair. I remember when me, you, Steph, and Barker all went to Beedeville, that was some fun huh. You always liked
to play jokes on me and mess with me. Like when we were walking through the old school in the dark, you jumped
out of that room and me and Steph cleared a table by jumping over it cause we were so scared. And when we rode
down backroads and you would say Oh my God look at that and then scream and we would all jump and scream.
Some of the last memories that I had with you are the best and I will always cherish those the most. I remember the
last time you came to Arkansas. We went riding in my 4 wheel drive truck in the snow. Boy, that was a trip huh.I
thought you would never quit laughing and smiling. The very last memory of you tho is the most important one. I
woke up @ like 9 in the morning and decided I was going hunting. I got you, Megan, Jack, and Travis and off we
went. We drove out to Weldon and used my grandpa's fourwheelers. We went out and waded through fields and
hip deep ditches to shoot at some doves. It was 30 or below outside and we were all soaking wet. We were out
there for 3 to 4 hours. We got back to my grandpas house and then home we went. Halfway home you thought it
would be funny to take your soaking wet socks off and throw them at Jacks truck cause he was following us back to
Newport. Well you did and when you took your shoes off,, ohhh that was a smell. I will never forget you laffin at me
and Meghan gagging. But ya know I would do anything to smell that smell again. We had some fun and I would
never trade it for anything. I miss you Caleb and I love you. I hope one day we will meet again, and maybe go
huntin.
Love Always,
AMBER (ODOM) HARVEY
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I Looked for you by Christie Littleton
I drove up to the curve where you died,
I searched for you there…I screamed and I cried
I hoped to unburden my heavy load,
As I looked for you by the side of the road
I tried to be brave, so I went to your grave,
I shouted your name then waited to hear,
But you never answered in words that were clear.
I thought it was you when the crow made his sound,
As I looked for you under the ground
I picked up a book and read all that I could,
All about god-just to see where you stood.
I looked to the sky, and I cried to you loud,
As I looked for you in each passing cloud.
I turned on your music and sang your old songs,
The lyrics might tell me where you had gone.
I thought I heard messages, however unclear,
As I looked for you in the notes I could hear.
I could not find where I thought you should be,
But something told me you lived inside of me.
I finally looked where you were from the start,
I found you!!! Deep inside my own heart!!!!!!!!!!
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Friends Until the End by Christie Littleton
We used to talk
We used to laugh
We were the best of friends
I thought that’s how it would always be
You taught me so much
Told me exactly what to say
I wish it were still the same
But someday I know it will
Maybe not today
But well meet up again
It wont be long until I see your face
In heaven that marvelous day
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In My Mind by Christie Littleton
Somewhere in my dreams tonight
Ill see you standing there
You look at me with a smile
"Life isn’t fair"
You say you were chosen for his garden
His precious hand picked bouquet
"God really needed me,
That’s why I couldn’t stay"
Its said to be that angels
Are sent from above
I’ve always had my angel
My brother-whose heart was filled with love
Whenever the ocean meets the sky
There will be memories of you and I
When I look up at the sky so blue
All I see are visions of you
"While there’s a heart in me, you’ll always be a part of me."
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Letter to Lynnette from Christie
Hey girl its me again! I feel like talking about Caleb again so I'm just gunnagonnae down what i feel like saying.....
Its bullshit!!!! Its crazy!!! Its a horrible aganiagonizing that never goes away. the pain gets worse with every day
that passes and hes not here with us. I hear your phone ring and in my mind its like I'm praying for it to be Caleb.
Or when you walk in, in the morning its like I'm just waiting to hear you say something Caleb and jamJamesne last
night ya know what I'm saying? I know you do. But instead of hearing what they done, i hear how Caleb came to
you last night in either a dream or something else. Which yea its great to hear and I'm always here to listen. But i
would much rather hear you talking about something the boys did last night. And all we can talk about now are
memories from the past!!
How do you do it Lynette? I hear your tears of pain, i see the eemptinessin your face. At times when i look at you i
just wanna break down and start screaming. Looking at you its pprobablythe closest thing to seeing Caleb. The
way you talk and when you say something he done or said, the way you do it reminds me of cCalebso much its
almost scary. But in another way it makes me smile. Its like hes right there with you while your speaking of him. I try
to understand what your going though right now, but i cant. No one can.
At first ya know Caleb was just another one of my brothers friends. But when he started coming to the house more,
and i got to talk to him more and more. I realized he wwasn'tjust another friend of James'. He was a very special
person for some reason and it ddidn'ttake long for me to figure out my i thought this. I new from the
bbeginningthere was something different with Caleb. He rreallywwasn'tlike the rest of James' friends. James' friends
ya know were James' friends. Id talk to them if they were at the house while i was there. But nothing big. But with
Caleb it was like he was my friend also. We would goof off and he would mess with me, it was cool. Always very
funny!! But ya know really it was like he closer than just a friend to me or my brother. Because when James would
be bitching at me for any lil thing, Caleb would be right there backing him up every minute of the way. And James
bitching at me i would get pissed but when Caleb would stand there and mmockhim or join him bitchin at me i
ccouldn'thelp but to laugh. There was this one time i was stuck at a friends house(I'm not sure if Ive told u about
this or not) with no car, and i was starving. Well i called everyone i could think of and then i called Caleb. Of course
he brought me some food! He wasn't gonna let me starve. Thats how he always too. Good hearted and out to help
anyone he could. Ive told you once ill tell ya again you and Garry done a wonderful job raising him.
love ya always........Christie
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caleb,
sup bro...goddang its soo hard to wake up everyday and know that ur not on this earth with everyone ne more...its
hard to wake up in my own bed and not over at ur house..it sux it really does and i cant do ne thing about it which
makes it worse...bro i dont know wat happend that day but i just wanted you and everyone else to know that from
the second the accident happend to the second you left everyone down here i was with u or near u i never left ur
side bro...u always said if u were takin from this earth that you wanted to be takin in ur truck or drivin cause thats all
we did was ride around and raise hell...well it happend just way to soon...its not even fun ne more ridin around
cause ur not there...acouple of days after the wreck i got my truck runnin and was driven around and i let go of the
wheel not thinkin about ne thing and ran off the road..i let go of that wheel cause we were always there when i
needed someone else to hold the wheel while i do something and u wernt...my b-day sucked with u not here ever
sence u passed away man everything has changed from the group to just everything the whole group is soo fucked
up right now i mean all i do now is hang out with spud and thats it mainly sweeney is too stoned all the time to do ne
thing which i dont hang out with him ne more...sooo i know you came back everyonce and awhile and fuck with me..
i was sittin in my truck a few days ago just sittin in my driveway my truck runnin with my e-brake on...on flat ground
and all of the sudden my truck starts rollin backwards i know thats you just messin around with me but i dont care
its great....you would have been SOO proud of brittany at prom caleb she was soo beautiful and it was aight but it
was not wat i wanted it was supposed to be all of us and me and u dressed like harry and loid of dumb and dumber
in blue and orange suits but i guess thats never gonna happen now..well thats all i gotta say for now im tryin my
best to take care of brittany for ya man dont worry about her just dont ever forget us down here and save us a
place up there for when its out time....
love ya bro.
james ( JISM )
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Letter from Bridget Hendrix
I will start by introducing myself, my name is Bridget Hendrix. Lynette was married to my brother Marcus, prior to her
and Caleb moving to Georgia. I want to give you guys more memories to cherish about Caleb, as well as, provide
you with information about the strong influences that made Caleb the young man he was.
I want to start with his mom. Lynette is most always laughing or giggling about something. Give her a little wine,
Lord will she ever giggle. I think giggling is important because it's contagious. Lynette allowed Caleb to be who he
wanted to be, not who she thought he should be. Caleb was aware that his mom was a strong woman and he knew
his boundaries, and he had the respect not to put his hairy toe across the line.
Caleb's dad, Gary, works for the Fire Department and at the Police Dept as a reserve officer. One early evening
the old hospital caught on fire, and I mean on FIRE. There was a young reserve fireman trying his best to hang on
to the fire hose while trying to make the high pressure of water burst out a window so the water could get inside.
Gary was on the fire truck, calmly climbed down, walked over and tapped the helmet of that fireman who was
fighting with the hose, took the hose from him, walked up to the blazing building, knocked out the window with the
metal end of the hose, shot some water into the building, and walked back over to the fireman and handed him the
hose. Gary was in a t-shirt and polyester pants. The fireman was all decked out in his turnout gear. I thought to
myself "Now that's a FIREMAN !" Another incident I remember with Gary is the night he was working at the police
dept on my shift (I too am a police officer). We had a stolen car and the person that had stolen it was a local crazy
person. We spotted the car and the chase was on. After the fool ran several innocent people off the road (head
on) we decided it was time to stop this mess. Once we got him stopped (I'll never tell how we did that ) Gary ran up
to the car and grabbed him by the neck with one hand and yanked him out of the car. The man never hit the
ground until Gary turned him loose. Now you know that Caleb came from two parents with strong will.
Keith is Caleb's half brother. Keith is a doll . Mostly, he is quiet with a soft voice. He has spent his time fighting for
our country over seas and is now back home. Keith and Caleb had a pretty good age difference between them. So
Keith brought home the hotties and Caleb could only dream. Actually Keith kept the same gorgeous girlfriend
throughout high school, which I believe layed the ground work for Caleb. I believe that showed Caleb that finding a
girlfriend and keeping that girlfriend placed a lot of value a relationship. Keith is dedicated to the person he is with
and now has a new family and a beautiful daughter. I never spent much time around his paternal or maternal
grandparents, but you can rest assure that you will leave with an aching side from laughter if you are around
Gary's dad very long.
Adam is also Caleb's half brother. Adam is a Sergeant for Newport Police Dept. To me, Adam and Caleb resemble
a lot. Both have those fat juicy lips and long eye lashes. Adam is a good dude. He is full of S_ _ t and will do
ANYTHING for a laugh. A prankster who will catch you not looking and pull a fast one on you. DO NOT try to argue
with him because he is super fast with come backs and will shame you under the table. Adam loved his little brother
and enjoyed the summer visits. Gary and Adam live next door to one another (talking about a titty baby ) so Caleb
had the best of both worlds when he visited for the summer.
My memories of Caleb are all good. I do not have one single bad memory about him. At Christmas time they would
all come to my moms house. As Caleb and the rest of the kids would open presents, Caleb would always say
"Thanks" with that slow drawn out country twang. If anyone asked him to go outside to play with new toys he would
always say "I guess", then ask his mom if he could go. I wish I had a dime for everytime I heard him say "I guess", I
believe that was his answer for everything. Caleb was just a good boy. Speaking of which, I will tell you a story.
Lynette and Marcus had been married for several years when I called and asked Marcus if I could come over
because I needed to talk to him. I had been dating someone who had a child and I was having a very tough time
adapting. The child and parent had been together for some time, all by themselves, and the child really didn't want
me in the picture because I was taking time away from 'their time'. So I decided to talk with my brother and get a
little advise. After I explained the situation and asked Marcus if he had experienced any of the problems (because
they were around the same age, being 8) and did he have a solution because he and Caleb seemed to get along
great. Marcus looked at me and said "Sis, I am sorry, I can't help you. Caleb is a damn good kid. He let's me and
Net (Marcus's pet name for Lynette) be a couple and spend time together. He does a lot of things for himself and
does not ask me or Net for a lot. He's just a good kid and I am lucky for that."
I could go on and on about Caleb. About his loving and caring personality but you all knew him and you already
know these things about him. I just wanted you to know about the 'Bradley Boys' strong back ground and how each
person he loved played a significant role in the young man he became. I hope you all have new memories now and
I encourage you all to get in touch with the friends of Caleb's from Newport and his parents to share stories and
memories.
One more story and I will close. This is a story from Marcus. Marcus, Lynette, and Caleb went to a local restaurant
for dinner one evening. Caleb was eating a lot of lemons with sugar on them. After some time had passed, Caleb
had gotten up and went to the bathroom. Marcus could hear this faint sound saying "Marcus, Maarrrccuuus,
MMMaaaarrrccccuuuusss." He finally realized it was Caleb and he could see the bathroom door cracked open and
Caleb peeking through. So Marcus went to see what was going on. Needless to say, the lemons had given Caleb
the Sh _ _ s and he didn't make it to the toilet before the poop began to flow. Marcus said he had it running down
both legs . So he grabbed Lynettes coat, wrapped Caleb in it and off to the house they went. Hope you enjoyed.
God Bless.
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Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank you for the blessing of Caleb and his life we shared. I knew he was special because he was ours, but now I
know he was special because he is Yours. How else do we account for the amazing number of people whose lives
he touched in so many positive ways in just 17 years. Not only family and his close friends, both in Newport and
Dawsonville, but HUNDREDS of others, firefighters, police officers, teachers, parents of friends...........it just goes
on and on. Police training T-shirts with Caleb's initials on the sleeve, the training run now named "Caleb's Run"
forever and ever. I know friends of his who've framed his obituary and who still tell me how much they cared about
him and how much they miss him. They've brought me flowers in his honor and shared his favorite things with me. I
am so proud to say he was my nephew, my Baby Boy. Thank you, Lord, for Caleb's parents who shared him, his
life and his death with me. He was one of my babies and I loved him so much. It means a lot now to know I was
there when You gave him to us on that Thanksgiving Day, and I was there when You took him home on that spring
day. Thank you, Father, for allowing us to know that he was saved. There is such peace in that, even though we
miss him so much. The comfort of knowing he won't spend eternity separated from You has given me such peace
and joy. At times I think my heart will break when I remember how devastating it was at the hospital--watching Dad's
and Mom's pain.....that was almost unbearable for those of us who could do nothing to spare them that pain. Still I
cry. Still I ache. Just when I think I'm over the worst, I remember he won't be here anymore physically. And I cry.
Lord, I loved him as I love all my babies. So I thank you for the years we had with him and I pray that his life will
touch many more in such a way that many will come to know You...........and we'll all see Caleb again one day
though we can only imagine what it will be like. I thank you, Lord.
With all my love, Aunt Ann
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Hey Caleb...
How are things going up there? I have a feeling things down here would be alot better if you were here...But your
not... so this is what your page is for. Us to either write to you or just write down memories we shared with you, well i
wrote a couple things to you on here. But i realized the other day i didnt mention the time i had a flat at your house.
It was my first flat ever, and it was also pouring rain. I went to leave your house, no sooner than i reached the
bottom of your driveway i knew it!!! I had a freaking flat!! Of course i called James. Yall ran down and looked at it,
yeo i was flat. So in the pouring rain you and james changed my flat tire. That was so sweet!!! But ya know you
were always so sweet!!! Its kinda hard to actually tell how James is doing. I know inside its killin him, he lets it show
every now and then. Caleb it was the crazyest shit the other night. Me and Krystal pulled in the driveway and i
swear i thought i seen you. You were sittin in James' chair kinda leaned back with a red shirt on... and yes your hair
was even a big fro. I loved it, but i had to take a second look.... And with that second look you were gone...but i
know you were there. It was like it always use to be id pull in the driveway, and id see a head looking out the
window most of the time it was either you and james. Well last night it was you!! I also called your phone the other
day. Its so wonderful to hear your voice but at the same time its soooo depressing... We miss ya down here....we
think about you every second of the day...we love ya and cant wait to see ya again!! love ya lots~~~~christie~~~~~
xoxoxoxoxoxo
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hey Christopher,
I just want you to know how much i miss you. I just wish that i would wake up from the nightmare and see you again.
Everyone here has been so great and has been helping me threw this. James has been so great caleb he has
been there for me no matter what you would be SOOO proud of him. Kateri has helped me so much she is such a
great sister to me. I still went to prom cause your dad told me that you would still want me to go and have fun i went
but i didn't have as much fun as i thought i would have, becasue you weren't there with me. We always talked about
going to prom together. I wish you could of saw me caleb. I tried to look really pretty for you i really did. I wish you
could of seen me. James looked good to i wish you could of seen him all of them dressed up in there suits. Things
have been so hard latly knowing that when i wake up im not going to be able to see you talk to you in the morning. I
miss those late nights we used to have i had soo much fun. I still expect you to keep that promise to me. I just want
you to know that. Its that one promise you made to me about being here for my birthday. I know im not going to be
able to see you i hope that your going to be there. well im going to go..until next time!!
I LOVE YOU CHRISTOPHER!! alwayd and forever
love,
your baby Brittany
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Somthing on my mind...
Caleb was one of my close friends. I've had a hard time dealing with it. I dont understand why God would take such
a great person out of this world, he did so much good and changed the lives of so many. But finally i think i am at
peace with his death. I dont think God wants us to understand why. It's still hard to realize though, that he isn't
going to be in newport this summer with us. He wont be at the ballpark, twitching and falling off the bleachers lol. Ive
known caleb since i was in 3rd grade. when i first moved to newport. we lived behing the fire dept. we used to
always play ball and ride 4-wheelers together. then we both moved. in 9th grade i moved back to newport and
started talking to him again because we were both best friends with tyler and taylor barker. If he was in newport,
and i was...then we were together. Tyler would always take us backroading. I will never forget all the precious
memories that we all have. I love Caleb and i hope he knows that! It's not fair that caeb was takin from us. I couldnt
believe the words i heard when they told me he was in a bad wreck. I was speechless. Of all the people that drink
and drive and have wrecks, ppl that walk away without a scratch, ppl that didn't deserve to walk away. Why? Caleb
had so many things he didn't get to finish. It shouldnt have been calebs turn! I just cry at night thinking of all the
tears everyone has cried. tears of pain, love, sarrow. I dont know how you deal with it Gary and Lynette. I have a
hard enough time. Ya'll raised a GREAT young man! He helped me in more ways that anyone could ever know. He
was there for me when things went wrong with my family. He was there to be a big bro to me while mine was gone in
Iraq. He was a true friend! Caleb was/is a blessing to many peoples lives, including mine! i wish i could tell all the
memories we made but there are just to many. We will all see him again one day. we can watch him play ball in
heaven. :). My email is jl_williams07@yahoo.com if anyone wants to email me.
Always with Love,
Jessie Williams
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The day we lost our Angel...
When the nextel went off and it was James saying you had just got hit by another truck.My heart stopped, not
knowing what to do i froze. I waited for James to talk to me again. I knew it was bad because my son was crying. Not
knowing what to do i left work heading towards Dawsonville. All i knew was the boys were in trouble and needed
help. First i find out they are heading to Cumming, then i find out Gainesville. The whole time you were on my mind.
From then on it just got worse. When i saw you in the emergency room i had the bad feeling you had already left
us. Yes- you have left this world but you will never leave our hearts and minds.Your smile,your jokes, and yes your
crazy hair. Everyday a song, a thought, or that black truck makes the tears start, but then a smile because i know
we have a special angel watching over us. We have shead alot of tears, why because we have lost our brother,our
son,our friend, our loved one. I can close my eyes and still see you standing in the kitchen messing with your hair.
Caleb i truly hope you understand just how special you are to our family, and you know you will always be in our
hearts. I can imagine the angle's faces when they saw our special angle coming through those gates.I have said
these words one time before and never expected to say again...God has you, and i can never figure out why, but i
know i will see you again and until that day you will always be in my heart. Thank you for being such a great boy.
They say he had other plans for you, but whats more important than being with your family???? Now i go to the
accident site or just ride through the neighborhood just to feel close to you. But its never close enough. Its wrong
and i will never understand why he took you from us.
love always
Tammie (james' momma)
You've left this world and went to a better place.
But never will we forget that precious face.
You always had a special place in our hearts,
we never planned on being so far apart.
So please remember our special angel above,
You will always have all of our love!!
Tammie
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Caleb,
Well days are still passing and your still not here!! Its just not right without you here!! Things dont seem at all like
they use to!! James and Spud are growing closer than they use to be. I feel so bad for my brother, you were always
there for him. Just like he was always there for you. All made such a cute couple! ha ha :) Its such a great feeling
knowing you always have someone to turn to when ya need to. And you were James' person to turn to. Hes doing
OK i guess? Im not real sure. I know he doesnt like to talk about it!! He also doesnt like to show his feelings, he
looks at it like there is nothing he can do about. So all his pain and misory he keeps to himself. Its not good for him
either! But ya know how guys are...yall gotta act tough
Today when i get off work me and Momma are going to put flowers op on the roadside. And then Sunday all of us
are going back up there and im gunna get us all white ballons. One by one i want us all to say something about you
and when they are finished theyll let the ballon go. Then next Sunday we are going to do a candle lighte service at
the roadside. I wanna do as much as possible with you or i guess now its do as much as possible for you in your
memory!!! Love ya man and keep watch over all of us from up there!! Cant wait to see your bright shining smile
again!!!
~~~~~~~~much love always~~~~~~~
~~~~~christie~~~~~~
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"Forever"
There are many things you mean to me
I wish that we could be
Together forever, happy and free
You ment the world to me
and much, much more
I wish i could of gave my life to you
Your the one I adore
I knew i would live you from the start
Forever and always
As long as your in my heart!
I will always love you christopher!!!
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Here it is almost August and it feels like yesterday you were here!! I just want to let you know you are missed so
much. Everything has changed so much and some is not good. You are thought about daily, you're always with us.
James is getting his truck slowly done, wish you could see it. Your brother misses you!!! As for your mom day by
day for her. I don't know what to say to her? She is very strong and doing her best. I know how she is feeling my
saving grace was having sis and James, when their brother passed away. I wanted to go with him but I had to keep
going for them, but your mom feels lost. Her heart has been ripped out! I can say the pain gets easier everyday but
NEVER goes away. I hope she realizes that she did a damn good job raising you, everybody knows she is a great
parent. Look how you turned out, nobody could ask for a better friend, brother, or son-you're the best. Thanks
MOM Wherever we are in the car or at home you are here. We have your stickers on the cars, your angels above
our visors, and pictures on our dash- I really hope that you see it, and know its because we love and miss you
more than any words could say. I will never understand why he takes the people he does. So much pain, and no
explanation why. On James' truck his license plate is personalized with the day we lost our angel. WE MISS YOU
LOVE YOU
Tammie
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Memories from Melanie
I’ve known Caleb and his parents since 1993, so I would say we are family instead of friends. I’ve often said Lynette
and I raised Caleb and Whitney (my daughter) together. Our kids went to Under the Rainbow Preschool together,
spent many days and nights at the hospital with us, went to the “Donut” school together, countless hours riding
quietly to who knows where for all of us to eat out and survived many trips to Jonesboro and Little Rock while their
mothers had a little bit of retail therapy. I cannot tell you how many nights we spent at the ballpark running between
Caleb and Whitney’s games. For the little while Terry and Amanda (foster kids) lived with us, Caleb and Terry were
inseparable. They looked and acted just like brothers. I was so thankful for Caleb befriending Terry when he
needed a friend most. When Caleb was old enough to stay at home alone after school, I’d call and try to trick him
into telling me he was alone. He always stuck with the code “My mama’s in the bathtub”, which made Lynette proud.
Caleb was always happy kid, but his feelings would get hurt so easily by the smallest thing. He could turn on the
tears like a faucet and just like clockwork we’d hear “Caleb! Quit that damn squalling! You quit it right now!” from
Lynette. We’d all laugh so hard we’d all cry!
We had lots of happy times together and I’m so thankful that we have these memories to keep us laughing and
smiling when we think of Caleb. My heart aches with the thought of the pain this tragedy has caused Gary and
Lynette. This is something no parent should ever have to go through. I know Gary and Lynette are strong people
and hour by hour and day by day, they carry on. I pray every day that the pain will be a little more bearable for
them. Our faith in the Lord is strong and He will carry us through the rough times, all we have to do is lean on Him.
Melanie Burnette
Letter from Taylor
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Hey Caleb,
Whats been going on well nothing much here just thinking of you and knowing that you are never coming back
butthat will be ok because i know deep down in my heart that one day i will get to see you again. Caleb it is going to
be hard not hearing my phone ring this summer and you asking me if you can come over and watch movies. I
remember this one time Me and caleb had just started going out and i had wrote in bright blue and silver paint all
over the door taylor loves caleb. I thought you know caleb will never see this because he had never came to my
house and right after i got done my phone rings and its caleb asking me for the first time if he could come over and
watch a movie and i said yea but give me a hour , so i took white paint and painted over it till this day it still say
everything that it had said that day, Caleb was a very special person and no matter what he will always remain the
number 1 person in my heart!!! I love you Christopher Caleb and you better believe that I use to always make his
dad call him and talk to him when i was at the firedapartment when we were younger i was in love with caleb and till
this day still am . It is about 4:43 a.m. here in newport and i cant sleep because everytime i try to sleep all i can
think about is you. Caleb you just have no clue to how special you are to everyone every time me amber and jack
get together all we basically talk about is you because we were all best friends jack loves you and you know that
yall were never apart during the summer yall were like brothers like that time you and him came and seen me and
brittany mann at the pool and you kept on chasing me around the pool and we fell in.lol.. we had so much fun and
one day we will all be able to make many more memories untill that day i love you caleb and see you soon!!
Love ya always
as long as i live you will never die!!
Taylor Brooke Barker
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I miss ya Caleb
It seems like just yesterday that we met. I will never forget that little cocked smile of yours and that bushy head of
hair. I remember when me, you, Steph, and Barker all went to Beedeville, that was some fun huh. You always liked
to play jokes on me and mess with me. Like when we were walking through the old school in the dark, you jumped
out of that room and me and Steph cleared a table by jumping over it cause we were so scared. And when we rode
down backroads and you would say Oh my God look at that and then scream and we would all jump and scream.
Some of the last memories that I had with you are the best and I will always cherish those the most. I remember the
last time you came to Arkansas. We went riding in my 4 wheel drive truck in the snow. Boy, that was a trip huh.I
thought you would never quit laughing and smiling. The very last memory of you tho is the most important one. I
woke up @ like 9 in the morning and decided I was going hunting. I got you, Megan, Jack, and Travis and off we
went. We drove out to Weldon and used my grandpa's fourwheelers. We went out and waded through fields and
hip deep ditches to shoot at some doves. It was 30 or below outside and we were all soaking wet. We were out
there for 3 to 4 hours. We got back to my grandpas house and then home we went. Halfway home you thought it
would be funny to take your soaking wet socks off and throw them at Jacks truck cause he was following us back to
Newport. Well you did and when you took your shoes off,, ohhh that was a smell. I will never forget you laffin at me
and Meghan gagging. But ya know I would do anything to smell that smell again. We had some fun and I would
never trade it for anything. I miss you Caleb and I love you. I hope one day we will meet again, and maybe go
huntin.
Love Always,
AMBER (ODOM) HARVEY
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I Looked for you by Christie Littleton
I drove up to the curve where you died,
I searched for you there…I screamed and I cried
I hoped to unburden my heavy load,
As I looked for you by the side of the road
I tried to be brave, so I went to your grave,
I shouted your name then waited to hear,
But you never answered in words that were clear.
I thought it was you when the crow made his sound,
As I looked for you under the ground
I picked up a book and read all that I could,
All about god-just to see where you stood.
I looked to the sky, and I cried to you loud,
As I looked for you in each passing cloud.
I turned on your music and sang your old songs,
The lyrics might tell me where you had gone.
I thought I heard messages, however unclear,
As I looked for you in the notes I could hear.
I could not find where I thought you should be,
But something told me you lived inside of me.
I finally looked where you were from the start,
I found you!!! Deep inside my own heart!!!!!!!!!!
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Friends Until the End by Christie Littleton
We used to talk
We used to laugh
We were the best of friends
I thought that’s how it would always be
You taught me so much
Told me exactly what to say
I wish it were still the same
But someday I know it will
Maybe not today
But well meet up again
It wont be long until I see your face
In heaven that marvelous day
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In My Mind by Christie Littleton
Somewhere in my dreams tonight
Ill see you standing there
You look at me with a smile
"Life isn’t fair"
You say you were chosen for his garden
His precious hand picked bouquet
"God really needed me,
That’s why I couldn’t stay"
Its said to be that angels
Are sent from above
I’ve always had my angel
My brother-whose heart was filled with love
Whenever the ocean meets the sky
There will be memories of you and I
When I look up at the sky so blue
All I see are visions of you
"While there’s a heart in me, you’ll always be a part of me."
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Letter to Lynnette from Christie
Hey girl its me again! I feel like talking about Caleb again so I'm just gunnagonnae down what i feel like saying.....
Its bullshit!!!! Its crazy!!! Its a horrible aganiagonizing that never goes away. the pain gets worse with every day
that passes and hes not here with us. I hear your phone ring and in my mind its like I'm praying for it to be Caleb.
Or when you walk in, in the morning its like I'm just waiting to hear you say something Caleb and jamJamesne last
night ya know what I'm saying? I know you do. But instead of hearing what they done, i hear how Caleb came to
you last night in either a dream or something else. Which yea its great to hear and I'm always here to listen. But i
would much rather hear you talking about something the boys did last night. And all we can talk about now are
memories from the past!!
How do you do it Lynette? I hear your tears of pain, i see the eemptinessin your face. At times when i look at you i
just wanna break down and start screaming. Looking at you its pprobablythe closest thing to seeing Caleb. The
way you talk and when you say something he done or said, the way you do it reminds me of cCalebso much its
almost scary. But in another way it makes me smile. Its like hes right there with you while your speaking of him. I try
to understand what your going though right now, but i cant. No one can.
At first ya know Caleb was just another one of my brothers friends. But when he started coming to the house more,
and i got to talk to him more and more. I realized he wwasn'tjust another friend of James'. He was a very special
person for some reason and it ddidn'ttake long for me to figure out my i thought this. I new from the
bbeginningthere was something different with Caleb. He rreallywwasn'tlike the rest of James' friends. James' friends
ya know were James' friends. Id talk to them if they were at the house while i was there. But nothing big. But with
Caleb it was like he was my friend also. We would goof off and he would mess with me, it was cool. Always very
funny!! But ya know really it was like he closer than just a friend to me or my brother. Because when James would
be bitching at me for any lil thing, Caleb would be right there backing him up every minute of the way. And James
bitching at me i would get pissed but when Caleb would stand there and mmockhim or join him bitchin at me i
ccouldn'thelp but to laugh. There was this one time i was stuck at a friends house(I'm not sure if Ive told u about
this or not) with no car, and i was starving. Well i called everyone i could think of and then i called Caleb. Of course
he brought me some food! He wasn't gonna let me starve. Thats how he always too. Good hearted and out to help
anyone he could. Ive told you once ill tell ya again you and Garry done a wonderful job raising him.
love ya always........Christie
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caleb,
sup bro...goddang its soo hard to wake up everyday and know that ur not on this earth with everyone ne more...its
hard to wake up in my own bed and not over at ur house..it sux it really does and i cant do ne thing about it which
makes it worse...bro i dont know wat happend that day but i just wanted you and everyone else to know that from
the second the accident happend to the second you left everyone down here i was with u or near u i never left ur
side bro...u always said if u were takin from this earth that you wanted to be takin in ur truck or drivin cause thats all
we did was ride around and raise hell...well it happend just way to soon...its not even fun ne more ridin around
cause ur not there...acouple of days after the wreck i got my truck runnin and was driven around and i let go of the
wheel not thinkin about ne thing and ran off the road..i let go of that wheel cause we were always there when i
needed someone else to hold the wheel while i do something and u wernt...my b-day sucked with u not here ever
sence u passed away man everything has changed from the group to just everything the whole group is soo fucked
up right now i mean all i do now is hang out with spud and thats it mainly sweeney is too stoned all the time to do ne
thing which i dont hang out with him ne more...sooo i know you came back everyonce and awhile and fuck with me..
i was sittin in my truck a few days ago just sittin in my driveway my truck runnin with my e-brake on...on flat ground
and all of the sudden my truck starts rollin backwards i know thats you just messin around with me but i dont care
its great....you would have been SOO proud of brittany at prom caleb she was soo beautiful and it was aight but it
was not wat i wanted it was supposed to be all of us and me and u dressed like harry and loid of dumb and dumber
in blue and orange suits but i guess thats never gonna happen now..well thats all i gotta say for now im tryin my
best to take care of brittany for ya man dont worry about her just dont ever forget us down here and save us a
place up there for when its out time....
love ya bro.
james ( JISM )
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Letter from Bridget Hendrix
I will start by introducing myself, my name is Bridget Hendrix. Lynette was married to my brother Marcus, prior to her
and Caleb moving to Georgia. I want to give you guys more memories to cherish about Caleb, as well as, provide
you with information about the strong influences that made Caleb the young man he was.
I want to start with his mom. Lynette is most always laughing or giggling about something. Give her a little wine,
Lord will she ever giggle. I think giggling is important because it's contagious. Lynette allowed Caleb to be who he
wanted to be, not who she thought he should be. Caleb was aware that his mom was a strong woman and he knew
his boundaries, and he had the respect not to put his hairy toe across the line.
Caleb's dad, Gary, works for the Fire Department and at the Police Dept as a reserve officer. One early evening
the old hospital caught on fire, and I mean on FIRE. There was a young reserve fireman trying his best to hang on
to the fire hose while trying to make the high pressure of water burst out a window so the water could get inside.
Gary was on the fire truck, calmly climbed down, walked over and tapped the helmet of that fireman who was
fighting with the hose, took the hose from him, walked up to the blazing building, knocked out the window with the
metal end of the hose, shot some water into the building, and walked back over to the fireman and handed him the
hose. Gary was in a t-shirt and polyester pants. The fireman was all decked out in his turnout gear. I thought to
myself "Now that's a FIREMAN !" Another incident I remember with Gary is the night he was working at the police
dept on my shift (I too am a police officer). We had a stolen car and the person that had stolen it was a local crazy
person. We spotted the car and the chase was on. After the fool ran several innocent people off the road (head
on) we decided it was time to stop this mess. Once we got him stopped (I'll never tell how we did that ) Gary ran up
to the car and grabbed him by the neck with one hand and yanked him out of the car. The man never hit the
ground until Gary turned him loose. Now you know that Caleb came from two parents with strong will.
Keith is Caleb's half brother. Keith is a doll . Mostly, he is quiet with a soft voice. He has spent his time fighting for
our country over seas and is now back home. Keith and Caleb had a pretty good age difference between them. So
Keith brought home the hotties and Caleb could only dream. Actually Keith kept the same gorgeous girlfriend
throughout high school, which I believe layed the ground work for Caleb. I believe that showed Caleb that finding a
girlfriend and keeping that girlfriend placed a lot of value a relationship. Keith is dedicated to the person he is with
and now has a new family and a beautiful daughter. I never spent much time around his paternal or maternal
grandparents, but you can rest assure that you will leave with an aching side from laughter if you are around
Gary's dad very long.
Adam is also Caleb's half brother. Adam is a Sergeant for Newport Police Dept. To me, Adam and Caleb resemble
a lot. Both have those fat juicy lips and long eye lashes. Adam is a good dude. He is full of S_ _ t and will do
ANYTHING for a laugh. A prankster who will catch you not looking and pull a fast one on you. DO NOT try to argue
with him because he is super fast with come backs and will shame you under the table. Adam loved his little brother
and enjoyed the summer visits. Gary and Adam live next door to one another (talking about a titty baby ) so Caleb
had the best of both worlds when he visited for the summer.
My memories of Caleb are all good. I do not have one single bad memory about him. At Christmas time they would
all come to my moms house. As Caleb and the rest of the kids would open presents, Caleb would always say
"Thanks" with that slow drawn out country twang. If anyone asked him to go outside to play with new toys he would
always say "I guess", then ask his mom if he could go. I wish I had a dime for everytime I heard him say "I guess", I
believe that was his answer for everything. Caleb was just a good boy. Speaking of which, I will tell you a story.
Lynette and Marcus had been married for several years when I called and asked Marcus if I could come over
because I needed to talk to him. I had been dating someone who had a child and I was having a very tough time
adapting. The child and parent had been together for some time, all by themselves, and the child really didn't want
me in the picture because I was taking time away from 'their time'. So I decided to talk with my brother and get a
little advise. After I explained the situation and asked Marcus if he had experienced any of the problems (because
they were around the same age, being 8) and did he have a solution because he and Caleb seemed to get along
great. Marcus looked at me and said "Sis, I am sorry, I can't help you. Caleb is a damn good kid. He let's me and
Net (Marcus's pet name for Lynette) be a couple and spend time together. He does a lot of things for himself and
does not ask me or Net for a lot. He's just a good kid and I am lucky for that."
I could go on and on about Caleb. About his loving and caring personality but you all knew him and you already
know these things about him. I just wanted you to know about the 'Bradley Boys' strong back ground and how each
person he loved played a significant role in the young man he became. I hope you all have new memories now and
I encourage you all to get in touch with the friends of Caleb's from Newport and his parents to share stories and
memories.
One more story and I will close. This is a story from Marcus. Marcus, Lynette, and Caleb went to a local restaurant
for dinner one evening. Caleb was eating a lot of lemons with sugar on them. After some time had passed, Caleb
had gotten up and went to the bathroom. Marcus could hear this faint sound saying "Marcus, Maarrrccuuus,
MMMaaaarrrccccuuuusss." He finally realized it was Caleb and he could see the bathroom door cracked open and
Caleb peeking through. So Marcus went to see what was going on. Needless to say, the lemons had given Caleb
the Sh _ _ s and he didn't make it to the toilet before the poop began to flow. Marcus said he had it running down
both legs . So he grabbed Lynettes coat, wrapped Caleb in it and off to the house they went. Hope you enjoyed.
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Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank you for the blessing of Caleb and his life we shared. I knew he was special because he was ours, but now I
know he was special because he is Yours. How else do we account for the amazing number of people whose lives
he touched in so many positive ways in just 17 years. Not only family and his close friends, both in Newport and
Dawsonville, but HUNDREDS of others, firefighters, police officers, teachers, parents of friends...........it just goes
on and on. Police training T-shirts with Caleb's initials on the sleeve, the training run now named "Caleb's Run"
forever and ever. I know friends of his who've framed his obituary and who still tell me how much they cared about
him and how much they miss him. They've brought me flowers in his honor and shared his favorite things with me. I
am so proud to say he was my nephew, my Baby Boy. Thank you, Lord, for Caleb's parents who shared him, his
life and his death with me. He was one of my babies and I loved him so much. It means a lot now to know I was
there when You gave him to us on that Thanksgiving Day, and I was there when You took him home on that spring
day. Thank you, Father, for allowing us to know that he was saved. There is such peace in that, even though we
miss him so much. The comfort of knowing he won't spend eternity separated from You has given me such peace
and joy. At times I think my heart will break when I remember how devastating it was at the hospital--watching Dad's
and Mom's pain.....that was almost unbearable for those of us who could do nothing to spare them that pain. Still I
cry. Still I ache. Just when I think I'm over the worst, I remember he won't be here anymore physically. And I cry.
Lord, I loved him as I love all my babies. So I thank you for the years we had with him and I pray that his life will
touch many more in such a way that many will come to know You...........and we'll all see Caleb again one day
though we can only imagine what it will be like. I thank you, Lord.
With all my love, Aunt Ann
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Hey Caleb...
How are things going up there? I have a feeling things down here would be alot better if you were here...But your
not... so this is what your page is for. Us to either write to you or just write down memories we shared with you, well i
wrote a couple things to you on here. But i realized the other day i didnt mention the time i had a flat at your house.
It was my first flat ever, and it was also pouring rain. I went to leave your house, no sooner than i reached the
bottom of your driveway i knew it!!! I had a freaking flat!! Of course i called James. Yall ran down and looked at it,
yeo i was flat. So in the pouring rain you and james changed my flat tire. That was so sweet!!! But ya know you
were always so sweet!!! Its kinda hard to actually tell how James is doing. I know inside its killin him, he lets it show
every now and then. Caleb it was the crazyest shit the other night. Me and Krystal pulled in the driveway and i
swear i thought i seen you. You were sittin in James' chair kinda leaned back with a red shirt on... and yes your hair
was even a big fro. I loved it, but i had to take a second look.... And with that second look you were gone...but i
know you were there. It was like it always use to be id pull in the driveway, and id see a head looking out the
window most of the time it was either you and james. Well last night it was you!! I also called your phone the other
day. Its so wonderful to hear your voice but at the same time its soooo depressing... We miss ya down here....we
think about you every second of the day...we love ya and cant wait to see ya again!! love ya lots~~~~christie~~~~~
xoxoxoxoxoxo
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hey Christopher,
I just want you to know how much i miss you. I just wish that i would wake up from the nightmare and see you again.
Everyone here has been so great and has been helping me threw this. James has been so great caleb he has
been there for me no matter what you would be SOOO proud of him. Kateri has helped me so much she is such a
great sister to me. I still went to prom cause your dad told me that you would still want me to go and have fun i went
but i didn't have as much fun as i thought i would have, becasue you weren't there with me. We always talked about
going to prom together. I wish you could of saw me caleb. I tried to look really pretty for you i really did. I wish you
could of seen me. James looked good to i wish you could of seen him all of them dressed up in there suits. Things
have been so hard latly knowing that when i wake up im not going to be able to see you talk to you in the morning. I
miss those late nights we used to have i had soo much fun. I still expect you to keep that promise to me. I just want
you to know that. Its that one promise you made to me about being here for my birthday. I know im not going to be
able to see you i hope that your going to be there. well im going to go..until next time!!
I LOVE YOU CHRISTOPHER!! alwayd and forever
love,
your baby Brittany
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Somthing on my mind...
Caleb was one of my close friends. I've had a hard time dealing with it. I dont understand why God would take such
a great person out of this world, he did so much good and changed the lives of so many. But finally i think i am at
peace with his death. I dont think God wants us to understand why. It's still hard to realize though, that he isn't
going to be in newport this summer with us. He wont be at the ballpark, twitching and falling off the bleachers lol. Ive
known caleb since i was in 3rd grade. when i first moved to newport. we lived behing the fire dept. we used to
always play ball and ride 4-wheelers together. then we both moved. in 9th grade i moved back to newport and
started talking to him again because we were both best friends with tyler and taylor barker. If he was in newport,
and i was...then we were together. Tyler would always take us backroading. I will never forget all the precious
memories that we all have. I love Caleb and i hope he knows that! It's not fair that caeb was takin from us. I couldnt
believe the words i heard when they told me he was in a bad wreck. I was speechless. Of all the people that drink
and drive and have wrecks, ppl that walk away without a scratch, ppl that didn't deserve to walk away. Why? Caleb
had so many things he didn't get to finish. It shouldnt have been calebs turn! I just cry at night thinking of all the
tears everyone has cried. tears of pain, love, sarrow. I dont know how you deal with it Gary and Lynette. I have a
hard enough time. Ya'll raised a GREAT young man! He helped me in more ways that anyone could ever know. He
was there for me when things went wrong with my family. He was there to be a big bro to me while mine was gone in
Iraq. He was a true friend! Caleb was/is a blessing to many peoples lives, including mine! i wish i could tell all the
memories we made but there are just to many. We will all see him again one day. we can watch him play ball in
heaven. :). My email is jl_williams07@yahoo.com if anyone wants to email me.
Always with Love,
Jessie Williams
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The day we lost our Angel...
When the nextel went off and it was James saying you had just got hit by another truck.My heart stopped, not
knowing what to do i froze. I waited for James to talk to me again. I knew it was bad because my son was crying. Not
knowing what to do i left work heading towards Dawsonville. All i knew was the boys were in trouble and needed
help. First i find out they are heading to Cumming, then i find out Gainesville. The whole time you were on my mind.
From then on it just got worse. When i saw you in the emergency room i had the bad feeling you had already left
us. Yes- you have left this world but you will never leave our hearts and minds.Your smile,your jokes, and yes your
crazy hair. Everyday a song, a thought, or that black truck makes the tears start, but then a smile because i know
we have a special angel watching over us. We have shead alot of tears, why because we have lost our brother,our
son,our friend, our loved one. I can close my eyes and still see you standing in the kitchen messing with your hair.
Caleb i truly hope you understand just how special you are to our family, and you know you will always be in our
hearts. I can imagine the angle's faces when they saw our special angle coming through those gates.I have said
these words one time before and never expected to say again...God has you, and i can never figure out why, but i
know i will see you again and until that day you will always be in my heart. Thank you for being such a great boy.
They say he had other plans for you, but whats more important than being with your family???? Now i go to the
accident site or just ride through the neighborhood just to feel close to you. But its never close enough. Its wrong
and i will never understand why he took you from us.
love always
Tammie (james' momma)
You've left this world and went to a better place.
But never will we forget that precious face.
You always had a special place in our hearts,
we never planned on being so far apart.
So please remember our special angel above,
You will always have all of our love!!
Tammie
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Caleb,
Well days are still passing and your still not here!! Its just not right without you here!! Things dont seem at all like
they use to!! James and Spud are growing closer than they use to be. I feel so bad for my brother, you were always
there for him. Just like he was always there for you. All made such a cute couple! ha ha :) Its such a great feeling
knowing you always have someone to turn to when ya need to. And you were James' person to turn to. Hes doing
OK i guess? Im not real sure. I know he doesnt like to talk about it!! He also doesnt like to show his feelings, he
looks at it like there is nothing he can do about. So all his pain and misory he keeps to himself. Its not good for him
either! But ya know how guys are...yall gotta act tough
Today when i get off work me and Momma are going to put flowers op on the roadside. And then Sunday all of us
are going back up there and im gunna get us all white ballons. One by one i want us all to say something about you
and when they are finished theyll let the ballon go. Then next Sunday we are going to do a candle lighte service at
the roadside. I wanna do as much as possible with you or i guess now its do as much as possible for you in your
memory!!! Love ya man and keep watch over all of us from up there!! Cant wait to see your bright shining smile
again!!!
~~~~~~~~much love always~~~~~~~
~~~~~christie~~~~~~
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"Forever"
There are many things you mean to me
I wish that we could be
Together forever, happy and free
You ment the world to me
and much, much more
I wish i could of gave my life to you
Your the one I adore
I knew i would live you from the start
Forever and always
As long as your in my heart!
I will always love you christopher!!!
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Caleb,
I miss you, I am so sorry I did not see you the last year of your life, but I did talk to you and told you how much I
love you and sent you money to help you out..you changed so much the last yr. with your hair grown out and you
getting so tall, we all thought you would be short like Keith, your voice changed so you sounded like Keith and I
teased you on the phone all the time about who you were Keith or Caleb, that seemed to tickle you.. Here's a story
about one time you were at the house and you and Kyle were playing. I guess one of you deceided to climb the
bird bath because you were both on it when it began to fall over and one piece caught on your head and Kyle
came running to tell me you were hurt! I rushed you to dr. Heller and she stitched you up with a few stitches... one
other time your mother brought you out around Xmas time and had you dressed up so cute( you looked like a little
English man) in your high socks and med. pants and vest and hat..this reporter of our paper wanted to take your
picture with Santa and put it on the front page of the paper, but no way was you going to sit on santa's lap so we
didn't get on front page..we begged and bribed you with everything and i think your mother almost shook you but
no way was you getting near santa that yr.
one time you were about 2 yr.s and Pop picked you up in Ark. and was bringing you to Ok. in the big truck..you
couldnot wait to see grandma.Pop had you up on the dog house and had just stopped at the big McDonalds and
got you a hanburger. Pop was busy driving and you were eating your hamburger and finally you said here to him,
he was busy driving and eating his hanb., so you said HERE again and he still didn't turn around, he just told you
to eat it all up and Phew something flew passed his ear and landed up on the dash and you screamed in his ear
"you eat it" i don't eat paper..it was the wrapper to the hamb.you must have been hungary because you had eaten
it all up and was trying to give him the paper..naturally he laughed and came home telling everyone how fast that
wrapper flew past his head. you were so proud to ride in the big truck with Pop..you thought he was about it..i hope
he is taking good care of you..you were still in diapers when this happended because he always threathen yo not
to poop your pants till you go to grandmas.His last wish was to get a big car with 4 baby car seats and a big seat
for Keith and be able to just drive his grandkids around all day and buy them hanburgers
grandma darline
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What a Loss
What a loss it was when you left...
The pain hurt deep in my heart...
You were a friend like none of the rest...
Everyday after your death is harder to start...
Too many times we got in trouble...
So little of those times were we punished...
We were rarely in singles, always in doubles...
But always we stuck together...
Whether it was on the playground in second grade...
Getting chased by those crazy girls...
Or out in the fields catchin snakes and blowing things up...
We were always friends to the end, but I never imagined yours would be so soon...
You were more than a friend, you were like my brother...
The pain I felt when i heard you were gone...
Was a pain greater than any I've felt before...
And even greater when i had to help lay you beneath that stone...
All the memories we made are in my heart forever...
Us shooting fireworks in the house, or shooting leeches in a field...
Riding around in my truck, or sneaking out to see girls...
They're all in my heart, and I'll never forget them...
I love you Caleb, I can't wait to see you behind those big bright golden gates. It seems like an eternity, but it won't
be long before we can carry on the friendship that we had before you left.
I love ya man...Friends Forever!
Jack
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Memorial
Tuesday August 2 made 5 months since Caleb was tragically taken from us. I decided to have a memorial in his
memory. It was held at the roadside where all this pain began. I was joined by Lynette, JT, James, Spud, Kateri,
Jordan, Michael B, Casey, Becky, Rebecca, Alex, Chad, and Tammie. We held lite candles till the were almost out,
then laid them all around his cross. We also all alid a red rose by the cross, and let white ballons go for all the
wonderful memories caleb left with us. Songs were playing in the backround the whole time. After we placed the
candles and roses on the ground Kateri blew them out...it was her birthday!!! I would really like to go up there the
2nd of every month and do something for him. I would really like to see some of all join us up there!! *~*Caleb i
cant even begin to describe the hurt and pain that stays with us since youve been gone*~*
love always christie
Special Angel
OUR SPECIAL ANGEL UP ABOVE
PLEASE REMEMBER YOUR ALWAYS LOVED
I OFTEN THINK ABOUT THAT AWFUL DAY
WONDERING WHY IT HAD TO GO THAT WAY
we miss you caleb so much!!!
Tammie
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A POEM WITH LOVE FOR LYNETTE AND HER PRECIOUS CALEB
A mothers love is hard to describe
especially after her child dies
nothing can hurt so deep inside
I know I will forever cry
I love you son in life and death
Without you I feel a loss of breath
I know you are around me every day
but also know Life will never be okay
Longing for you is hard to do
I spend a lot of time feeling very blue
I know in the future when I leave here
I will finally have you very near
When that wonderful time does arrives
I will know I have survived
you will finally be back in my arms
with all of your beautiful heavenly charms
Lyndie Sorenson
copyright July 05
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I miss you, I am so sorry I did not see you the last year of your life, but I did talk to you and told you how much I
love you and sent you money to help you out..you changed so much the last yr. with your hair grown out and you
getting so tall, we all thought you would be short like Keith, your voice changed so you sounded like Keith and I
teased you on the phone all the time about who you were Keith or Caleb, that seemed to tickle you.. Here's a story
about one time you were at the house and you and Kyle were playing. I guess one of you deceided to climb the
bird bath because you were both on it when it began to fall over and one piece caught on your head and Kyle
came running to tell me you were hurt! I rushed you to dr. Heller and she stitched you up with a few stitches... one
other time your mother brought you out around Xmas time and had you dressed up so cute( you looked like a little
English man) in your high socks and med. pants and vest and hat..this reporter of our paper wanted to take your
picture with Santa and put it on the front page of the paper, but no way was you going to sit on santa's lap so we
didn't get on front page..we begged and bribed you with everything and i think your mother almost shook you but
no way was you getting near santa that yr.
one time you were about 2 yr.s and Pop picked you up in Ark. and was bringing you to Ok. in the big truck..you
couldnot wait to see grandma.Pop had you up on the dog house and had just stopped at the big McDonalds and
got you a hanburger. Pop was busy driving and you were eating your hamburger and finally you said here to him,
he was busy driving and eating his hanb., so you said HERE again and he still didn't turn around, he just told you
to eat it all up and Phew something flew passed his ear and landed up on the dash and you screamed in his ear
"you eat it" i don't eat paper..it was the wrapper to the hamb.you must have been hungary because you had eaten
it all up and was trying to give him the paper..naturally he laughed and came home telling everyone how fast that
wrapper flew past his head. you were so proud to ride in the big truck with Pop..you thought he was about it..i hope
he is taking good care of you..you were still in diapers when this happended because he always threathen yo not
to poop your pants till you go to grandmas.His last wish was to get a big car with 4 baby car seats and a big seat
for Keith and be able to just drive his grandkids around all day and buy them hanburgers
grandma darline
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What a Loss
What a loss it was when you left...
The pain hurt deep in my heart...
You were a friend like none of the rest...
Everyday after your death is harder to start...
Too many times we got in trouble...
So little of those times were we punished...
We were rarely in singles, always in doubles...
But always we stuck together...
Whether it was on the playground in second grade...
Getting chased by those crazy girls...
Or out in the fields catchin snakes and blowing things up...
We were always friends to the end, but I never imagined yours would be so soon...
You were more than a friend, you were like my brother...
The pain I felt when i heard you were gone...
Was a pain greater than any I've felt before...
And even greater when i had to help lay you beneath that stone...
All the memories we made are in my heart forever...
Us shooting fireworks in the house, or shooting leeches in a field...
Riding around in my truck, or sneaking out to see girls...
They're all in my heart, and I'll never forget them...
I love you Caleb, I can't wait to see you behind those big bright golden gates. It seems like an eternity, but it won't
be long before we can carry on the friendship that we had before you left.
I love ya man...Friends Forever!
Jack
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Memorial
Tuesday August 2 made 5 months since Caleb was tragically taken from us. I decided to have a memorial in his
memory. It was held at the roadside where all this pain began. I was joined by Lynette, JT, James, Spud, Kateri,
Jordan, Michael B, Casey, Becky, Rebecca, Alex, Chad, and Tammie. We held lite candles till the were almost out,
then laid them all around his cross. We also all alid a red rose by the cross, and let white ballons go for all the
wonderful memories caleb left with us. Songs were playing in the backround the whole time. After we placed the
candles and roses on the ground Kateri blew them out...it was her birthday!!! I would really like to go up there the
2nd of every month and do something for him. I would really like to see some of all join us up there!! *~*Caleb i
cant even begin to describe the hurt and pain that stays with us since youve been gone*~*
love always christie
Special Angel
OUR SPECIAL ANGEL UP ABOVE
PLEASE REMEMBER YOUR ALWAYS LOVED
I OFTEN THINK ABOUT THAT AWFUL DAY
WONDERING WHY IT HAD TO GO THAT WAY
we miss you caleb so much!!!
Tammie
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A POEM WITH LOVE FOR LYNETTE AND HER PRECIOUS CALEB
A mothers love is hard to describe
especially after her child dies
nothing can hurt so deep inside
I know I will forever cry
I love you son in life and death
Without you I feel a loss of breath
I know you are around me every day
but also know Life will never be okay
Longing for you is hard to do
I spend a lot of time feeling very blue
I know in the future when I leave here
I will finally have you very near
When that wonderful time does arrives
I will know I have survived
you will finally be back in my arms
with all of your beautiful heavenly charms
Lyndie Sorenson
copyright July 05
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hey lynette my sister sent me something u have wrote askin everyone to write down memorys of caleb...well theres
alot and i mean alot me and ur son spent the last 3 or 4 years of his life pretty much together and i know i will
never forget him aswell as he will never forget me...the most aften memory i come to is the night b4 the accident
we were comming home from somewhere and someone brought up the ideal to steal the speedlimit sign at the
end of grizzle..so of course calebs all for it so is everyone else well when we get the its too tall so caleb goes to
back his truck up to the sign slides in a little ditch and gets stuck...and i mean stuck..i think it was me sweeney mat
and maybe potter im not sure but all of us had to push for like a hour just to get his out me and sweeney were
covered from head to toe in mud..idk why caleb was the one in the truck he weighted the most besides sweeney
but he was the hole driving while we were pushin..well after we got it unstuck caleb ofcourse bein the asshole he
was made me and sweeney ride on the outside of his truck on the stepboards..omg that was such a cold ride from
the end of grizzle to ur house..me and sweeney about froze...thats the last good memory i had with him...another
one i can think of is we were down in cumming getting something for his truck i think and he had to get gas so we
were gonna go to the bp of exit 14..well he couldnt find the entrance so we just jumped the curb at the carwash
beside it and got gas...everyone was looking at us it was great...theres a crapload of memorys ill start sendin u
them whenever i think of ne...i have no clue how hard this is for u but i know how hard it is for me and i know its
gonna be a million times worse...and about the schooling im gettin right to it and workin on grad..and lookin into
gettin into gainesville for now...i also found a truck i want..i love it and i know caleb would've loved it also..tell me
watcha think its 6,500 or 6,000 the guy said he dont know yet
love ya #2son always
james littleton
alot and i mean alot me and ur son spent the last 3 or 4 years of his life pretty much together and i know i will
never forget him aswell as he will never forget me...the most aften memory i come to is the night b4 the accident
we were comming home from somewhere and someone brought up the ideal to steal the speedlimit sign at the
end of grizzle..so of course calebs all for it so is everyone else well when we get the its too tall so caleb goes to
back his truck up to the sign slides in a little ditch and gets stuck...and i mean stuck..i think it was me sweeney mat
and maybe potter im not sure but all of us had to push for like a hour just to get his out me and sweeney were
covered from head to toe in mud..idk why caleb was the one in the truck he weighted the most besides sweeney
but he was the hole driving while we were pushin..well after we got it unstuck caleb ofcourse bein the asshole he
was made me and sweeney ride on the outside of his truck on the stepboards..omg that was such a cold ride from
the end of grizzle to ur house..me and sweeney about froze...thats the last good memory i had with him...another
one i can think of is we were down in cumming getting something for his truck i think and he had to get gas so we
were gonna go to the bp of exit 14..well he couldnt find the entrance so we just jumped the curb at the carwash
beside it and got gas...everyone was looking at us it was great...theres a crapload of memorys ill start sendin u
them whenever i think of ne...i have no clue how hard this is for u but i know how hard it is for me and i know its
gonna be a million times worse...and about the schooling im gettin right to it and workin on grad..and lookin into
gettin into gainesville for now...i also found a truck i want..i love it and i know caleb would've loved it also..tell me
watcha think its 6,500 or 6,000 the guy said he dont know yet
love ya #2son always
james littleton
C aring
A thelete
L oving
E asy going
B oy
I remember Caleb as a little boy. There isn’t a single thing that comes to mind, there are many. He was always
reserved and usually to himself while Nette & I ran around or just did girly things. He loved baseball and playing
video games. He knew every rap song that came on the radio.
Lynette told me once that she found a picture of me in a bikini in Caleb’s room. I was embarrassed but also
flatterd. He was such a sweet kid.
Caleb loved to go to the lake. I had to fight Marcus so I could pull him on the tube. I never could throw him off the
tube.
Caleb also loved to ride his bike. Most of the time he would be riding around in the neighborhood when I went to
see Lynette.
When I broke my nose playing softball, Caleb was so thoughtful. He brought me an icepack. He wanted to make
me feel better.
I remember Keith’s wedding Caleb was such a little man. He looked so sharp in him suit.
I am certain Caleb was still a wonderful person. As life plays out I hadn’t seen him in 5 years when he left this
earth. At his viewing I was so surprised to see a handsome young man. My memories of the little boy were
amazed to see how he had grown. I loved his hair. My hope is my memories will help Nette & Gary remember
their beautiful son. I know he is in a better place. May God Be with & Bless everyone Caleb’s life touched.
Shadra Baker
A thelete
L oving
E asy going
B oy
I remember Caleb as a little boy. There isn’t a single thing that comes to mind, there are many. He was always
reserved and usually to himself while Nette & I ran around or just did girly things. He loved baseball and playing
video games. He knew every rap song that came on the radio.
Lynette told me once that she found a picture of me in a bikini in Caleb’s room. I was embarrassed but also
flatterd. He was such a sweet kid.
Caleb loved to go to the lake. I had to fight Marcus so I could pull him on the tube. I never could throw him off the
tube.
Caleb also loved to ride his bike. Most of the time he would be riding around in the neighborhood when I went to
see Lynette.
When I broke my nose playing softball, Caleb was so thoughtful. He brought me an icepack. He wanted to make
me feel better.
I remember Keith’s wedding Caleb was such a little man. He looked so sharp in him suit.
I am certain Caleb was still a wonderful person. As life plays out I hadn’t seen him in 5 years when he left this
earth. At his viewing I was so surprised to see a handsome young man. My memories of the little boy were
amazed to see how he had grown. I loved his hair. My hope is my memories will help Nette & Gary remember
their beautiful son. I know he is in a better place. May God Be with & Bless everyone Caleb’s life touched.
Shadra Baker
Caleb,
Where can I start? I love you, and miss you very much. I'm trying to take care of Dad for you, but it can be very
hard sometimes. We miss you very much around the house, espically sitting on the end of my coffee table playing
playstation late at night. It took me almost two months to even turn the damn thing on after you passed away.
When I checked my memory card it had some things that you had saved ,and there still on there. Caleb it's hard
on me to go fishing this summer without you. Sometimes I can't find anyone to go with me and I could always
count on you. Dad got a motorcycle which I know you would love. I don't know how we will go hunting this year
without you but I told dad and I think you would agree with me that you would want us to go for you. I want you to
know how much I love you and I always will brother. You meant the world to me. There are so many things I wish
we could have done together but I just look back now and thank God I was able to spend the time I did with a very
special person. I want you to know I will never forget you. Dad and the people at the Fire Dept. made a memorial
in your honor. It looks great. Sometimes when me and dad are sitting around we start talking about how much we
miss you and we both start crying. It's kind of hard to see the strongest man you have ever known in your life cry,
but I know why he is. Sometimes late at night when Mary Rachel is asleep I lay there and I think about you and I
cry. I kind of don't know why, I just do. I don't know if it's cause I miss you so much or I feel like we all have been
cheated out of something. I still remember changing your diapers. I still remember letting you drive my truck all
over Jackson County one night before you went back to Georgia. Caleb, I hope you know your big brother loves
you so much. I think about how much stuff I am gonna miss out on with you, but I know one of these days you will
show me what I was missing out on. I am so sorry this happened to you. I would change places with you in a
minute, just so you could experience the things in life you didn't get to that I have already done. I still remember
what I was doing the day you had your accident. Dad and I were forming up a concrete sidewalk at Brenda Wards
when your mom called and told dad. He started crying instantly and I knew something was bad wrong. You would
have loved the ride to Georgia me and dad made. It only took us 6 hours to get there. Sometimes I would look out
the window and think I was wathcing you play Grand Turismo 3 the way dad was driving. I love you very very much
and I want you to know that anytime I go hunting of fishing for the rest of my life in some way or another you are
always with me. Love Always,
Big Brother
Adam R. Bradley
Where can I start? I love you, and miss you very much. I'm trying to take care of Dad for you, but it can be very
hard sometimes. We miss you very much around the house, espically sitting on the end of my coffee table playing
playstation late at night. It took me almost two months to even turn the damn thing on after you passed away.
When I checked my memory card it had some things that you had saved ,and there still on there. Caleb it's hard
on me to go fishing this summer without you. Sometimes I can't find anyone to go with me and I could always
count on you. Dad got a motorcycle which I know you would love. I don't know how we will go hunting this year
without you but I told dad and I think you would agree with me that you would want us to go for you. I want you to
know how much I love you and I always will brother. You meant the world to me. There are so many things I wish
we could have done together but I just look back now and thank God I was able to spend the time I did with a very
special person. I want you to know I will never forget you. Dad and the people at the Fire Dept. made a memorial
in your honor. It looks great. Sometimes when me and dad are sitting around we start talking about how much we
miss you and we both start crying. It's kind of hard to see the strongest man you have ever known in your life cry,
but I know why he is. Sometimes late at night when Mary Rachel is asleep I lay there and I think about you and I
cry. I kind of don't know why, I just do. I don't know if it's cause I miss you so much or I feel like we all have been
cheated out of something. I still remember changing your diapers. I still remember letting you drive my truck all
over Jackson County one night before you went back to Georgia. Caleb, I hope you know your big brother loves
you so much. I think about how much stuff I am gonna miss out on with you, but I know one of these days you will
show me what I was missing out on. I am so sorry this happened to you. I would change places with you in a
minute, just so you could experience the things in life you didn't get to that I have already done. I still remember
what I was doing the day you had your accident. Dad and I were forming up a concrete sidewalk at Brenda Wards
when your mom called and told dad. He started crying instantly and I knew something was bad wrong. You would
have loved the ride to Georgia me and dad made. It only took us 6 hours to get there. Sometimes I would look out
the window and think I was wathcing you play Grand Turismo 3 the way dad was driving. I love you very very much
and I want you to know that anytime I go hunting of fishing for the rest of my life in some way or another you are
always with me. Love Always,
Big Brother
Adam R. Bradley
My Reading with George Anderson
Caleb had to be there Wednesday night, the things that I wrote down that I wanted to hear about from Caleb were:
I wrote these thing down on the back pages of a book on the plane on the way to New York that day:
What were you doing?
Why were you there?
Where you or anyone else there doing anything wrong?
Did you suffer or hurt?
Did you know we were all there with you?
Were you moving your foot for me?
Was this supposed to happen?
Are you with me when I think you are?
Why do you appear in my dreams but not your dads?
Will you always be with me?
Do you blame me for this happening as much as I blame me?
Are you blaming me for you not having good tires?
Is that why you wrecked?
Was I a good mom to you?
Was I there for you?
I showed this list to no one as I wrote it on the plane on my way there.
In the reading the first souls showed up and they moved immediately to me, as George pointed out they are here
to see you. So lets start.
There is a male presence.
There are two other males and two females follows.
they are all family.
He told George to repeat it
He claims he is the younger one.
He passed on relatively young.
George says anyone 65 or younger is considered young to him and the young male presence heard him and joked
back he was way younger than that.
He states he his family yes? I said yes
George says they are talking among themselves and he over heard the younger one say he was the son that
passed on. But not yours obliviously as he states. But he must be to someone. Now he did bring his dad up yes? I
say yes
now let him explain ..he claims he is with his dad but his dad his still here ?...I say yes
George explains that he is explaining he is with his dad spiritually.
This is signaling he is again the son that passed on .
He brings his mom up also that his folks are still here. He is telling him again he is the son that passed on.. But he
is telling him that grandparents are with him, George says that must be the others that are with him.
Now he does put a big heart in front of you...understand? I say yes
states he is your sweetheart but he states in a loving manner...and he states again he is your sweetheart in a
loving manner. Pushing this
he states romantically ..yes? and I say no I don't think so.
George says he is pushing this ..and then George says well alright I guess I am going to have to say that I made a
mistake. And take it that he means in affection. George says wait he is telling me he stated that he is
family...George says he is complaining to me that he already established that he is family and I just forgot. I have a
hard time with the heart sometimes ... I think the wrong way ..he is telling me again he already stated he is family I
just for got. Oh ok he also comes to you again in that affectionate manner with the sweetheart symbol and states
that you are also good friends that you share the heart in many ways ..friendship love affection as family. The soul
jokes we are not that liberated because George took it as romantically. but it is not.
He does again state he is the son that passed on ..yes he is saying he told me information correctly in the
beginning he got a little uppity with me he got feisty with me because he says he told me everything in the
beginning ...why did you scatter and then I asked him well what else did you tell me and the soul said I told you I
was the son that passed on and you took it the way you thought I meant it..George is saying sometimes the
hardest thing for him to do sometimes is to keep his two cents out of the session. So he is your son? I say yes...
and he says my mother is here she is right in front of you....
But he brings this up again he jokes that he is your little sweetheart.
That's why he was putting the symbol in front of you...
George is explaining that they will come to us in a manner that sometimes only we know what they are talking about
and George does not always know how to interpret it so we have to listen carefully and he has to be careful not to
add to what they are saying because then he will mess it up.
George says the soul is correct he did immediately say he was the son that passed and that he was family. and I
just messed it up
Now he speaks of a tragic passing yes? In the sense of his age as well as circumstances.
Now this is ironic but interesting ...he claims he knew he was going to pass on. And I say he claims what ?
And George repeats He claims he knew he was going to pass on. Now this does not mean he walked up to
someone and says I know I am going to die ...it could just mean that in the back of their minds he knew when he
got there that he knew this was where he was supposed to be.
Because he reports he had a very sudden passing. It is very interesting your son says he passes very young ..but
he would seem older? I say yes
It is funny ...he admits that is probably what was confusing my brain... I am talking to a young person but yet I feel
like I am taking to an older person. I would throw me off a little bit.So I am glad he explained that. I am glad he
explained that ..it explains to me why it feels like I am talking to a much older person.
He claims his passing is accidental yes? I say yes
Also emphasis that he did not suffer prior to his passing....He tells me it is a big hang up with you.That you have
obsessed in silence that his final moments were agonizing you play it in your mind over and over ..you play it in
your mind like an old re-run of a movie. He is telling you he did not agonize prior to his passing he did not suffer he
passes from one moment to another also this has nothing to do with a particular religion But St Joseph appears
next to you and St Joseph is the patron of a happy death ...that your sons passing was a peaceful one despite of
the circumstances.
Yeah your son speaks that there was injury to the head yes? I say yes
and he says he was gone. He moves instantly form one moment to the next. He keeps emphasize that it was no
ones fault. especially to you again. He wants to make sure you leave here knowing you did not fail as his mother.
Because he says you suffer in silence over his passing like you punish your self that it's your fault that you think
you blanked up. Your son cause he states you could not save him.
And as he says some body can tell you it's not your fault but you have to hear it from him. That's why he is saying
your hearing it from him.
At times he is concerned it's almost like you think he is mad at you. He keeps saying he is not mad at you... the
only thing that he brings up that your allowed to obsess about it that he loves you and you love him that your
allowed to think about all the time. Blaming yourself or holding your self responsible or thinking that you have failed
him is completely wrong thinking. And your son seems like the type of guy that tells it like it is. You would hear the
truth from him if he felt you had messed up he would let you know.
He say yeah that right I remember now like he is talking to him.....His dad is still on the earth because he calls out
to his father also wether his father believes in this or not so what ...he just calls out to him regardless... he jokes
and says that someday everyone will find out he is right as usual.
You son brings up indeed he had a short life but it was a very fulfilling life and admits to me that even when he was
here he was like very on the ball had his life like focused out somebody that was handling ten projects at once.
Again somebody who feels older than his years.
Again he can have a little fiery personality too yes?
I experienced that from the beginning when I messed up the sweetheart and forgot what he had said he got rather
fiery with me about not paying attention.
Now you have other family? because he calls out that he is the son and the brother. which he had done earlier
then I didn't say that right away because at that point I didn't know he was your son and I might have made the
mistake of thinking he was your brother.
But he is kinda mommas boy that's another reason for the sweetheart he is you little sweetheart. This is your little
sweetheart. The golden apple appears over your head which means he was the apple of momma's eye.He was
your golden boy.
At least when he explains this now I can understand why he kept coming to you in such a strong loving manner and
I started confusing it and thinking it was a romantic affiliation.
He keeps stating that he is alright and that he is in a safe and happy place , he is more concerned about you being
in a safe place emotionally Because as he states you suffer in silence you hold it in and constantly dwell upon it.
He does speak of you working yes? I say yes He is glad you do and you should stay because it is almost like you
thought you would be better off at home, but as he states if you have too much time to think you will do exactly that
at least it distracts you and keeps you focused Because as your son states he knows you just want to die but as
he brings up your not supposed to be there yet and you can always depend on him to tell it like it is.
He is not being insensitive to what your going through, but he is not going to come in and make up a fairy tale. He
says you feel he was cheated out of his life. he states he wasn't , he fulfilled his life and as he states and it is true it
is not the years of your life it is the life of your years.
He keeps insisting that the tragedy is an accident. Incase there was an uncertainty he keeps insisting the passing
is accidental . He sees it as a passport to get him the where he is supposed to go.
Also he knows that you were afraid of him being afraid over there which he seems like the kinda guy that would
make friends and find his way rather quickly which he has that's why he speaks of grandparents being with him
wether they be his or yours what ever just so you know that he is not alone.
Yeah again all your son cares about is that you come to the realization that you did not fail him as a mother. That is
all that is on his mind...!!! He does not really care about anything else he is not going to come in and go over it like
a score card like anything silly.
As he says it is more important that you know he is alright and in a safe and happy place and that he knows that
you love him and he loves you and that you did not fail him as a mother. He wants to put your mind and heart at
peace. Now he feels he has done that but the rest is up to you for you to absorb that.
There was a grandmother you were close with ? Because somebody comes forward I guess it would be like his
great grandmother or something , but somebody comes forward there's a grandmother there with him now it is
either his or one of yours...I am not sure because he is not telling me but she is one of the women in the room. And
he brings up a grandfather with him so again that's one of the other men that followed him in so there's other
people that are there with him most defiantly.
Now I am trying to make sure that I did ..but there is people back there that speak another language?
Grandparents or someone I heard another language in the background but who knows.
Yeah your son again specifies that he passed rather quickly. Gone from one moment to the next. There was that
injury to the head and he was gone. Also this is nothing to do with organized religion, But the blessed mother
keeps coming to you as one bereaved mother to another, someone that knows exactly what your going
through....appears around you as the mother of perpetual health does not matter if your catholic it is a spiritual
presence, you have actually prayed to her yes? I say yes
In your own way and it is funny it is not your cup of tea as your son tells me but again who else is going to
understand the way you feel better than a bereaved mother?
And as your son says his passing has turned your world completely upside down ....things will never be the same
again. Before you might have had your thought pattern organized in their neat little boxes but now everything has
been scattered so as your son says you turned to her because he knows your kinda ticked off at you know the
other side you know like your mad at God your kinda pissed off because you tried to do everything right then how
did this happen to my son.. its like your son says they can't interfere with our lives where they lead us around by
the nose so you turned and he knows you turned to the blessed mother in a comforting sense because she is
going to understand how you feel.
As he states she is going to keep you hanging on even though this is not part of your belief system . nor was it in
the past.
Your son says don't worry about him there he says you can put your head on your pillow tonight and know you
have one son who is alright and in a safe happy place.
and also you have other children ? I say yes
Because your son calls out he claims he is around very much like he is your guardian angel which should not
surprise you in the least. But he also states to mother but don't smother. He says not to over whelm them because
it is frightening to them that this happened as well
It becomes a scary situation.
but again as your son says you did not do anything wrong that this happened to him. it is like your picking on
yourself , that it is your fault that this happened where did you go wrong and as your son states he is more
concerned about your emotional state and that's why he is addressing it so intensely.
But he does again call to his dad , and family wether they believe it or not he could care less frankly he is very like
yeah ok fine what ever they will find out I am right some day anyway.
But he does embrace you with love and as long as you know he is alright and in a happy place things are easier.
but he tells me he is going to pull back cause another soul is coming in the room and they are ready for their turn
and they are letting him know he is talking a great deal which he like to do. he admits to me that he doesn't
/wouldn't have the patience to wait till the end of the night which doesn't surprise me came in first. The others In the
background are saying ok you have to move, so some body else can come forward.
But your son does embrace you with love and to absorb what he said.
I was told to bring you some thing let me find it ..... for petes sake then he found it.(a picture of the blessed mother
is what he gave me). It is a gift from your son he wants you to have it and a reassurance that he alright and at
peace. Again it is not an endorsement of religion because I know that's not your cup of tea.In any case that's from
him a spiritual gift. So that's from him with love. Because that's how she appeared near you.
And as he says every time you look upon it you will be re-informed of what he said tonight so your mind can be at
rest. And here is a focal point of prayer for you as well ( he gave me a book mark with a prayer for mothers who
are grieving) Cause as he jokes she is kinda like the only one your praying to everybody else you have had it with
..every body's been X ed off the list and it is so odd considering you were not brought up with it that that's were you
turned but again it makes perfect sense.
your son spoke about you having sleepless nights ....so that's a nice prayer that will help you on those sleepless
nights. As he said you have sleepless nights, so he says if your going to stay up that prayer is very comforting he
wants you to have that.
Again some body else is complaining he talks to much.
Again he embraces you with love along with the others and but he says again listen to what he said and know he is
with you. And he says until we meet again. And then he pulls back.
and that was the end of my session.
I wanted to share this information with you,
Lynette
Caleb had to be there Wednesday night, the things that I wrote down that I wanted to hear about from Caleb were:
I wrote these thing down on the back pages of a book on the plane on the way to New York that day:
What were you doing?
Why were you there?
Where you or anyone else there doing anything wrong?
Did you suffer or hurt?
Did you know we were all there with you?
Were you moving your foot for me?
Was this supposed to happen?
Are you with me when I think you are?
Why do you appear in my dreams but not your dads?
Will you always be with me?
Do you blame me for this happening as much as I blame me?
Are you blaming me for you not having good tires?
Is that why you wrecked?
Was I a good mom to you?
Was I there for you?
I showed this list to no one as I wrote it on the plane on my way there.
In the reading the first souls showed up and they moved immediately to me, as George pointed out they are here
to see you. So lets start.
There is a male presence.
There are two other males and two females follows.
they are all family.
He told George to repeat it
He claims he is the younger one.
He passed on relatively young.
George says anyone 65 or younger is considered young to him and the young male presence heard him and joked
back he was way younger than that.
He states he his family yes? I said yes
George says they are talking among themselves and he over heard the younger one say he was the son that
passed on. But not yours obliviously as he states. But he must be to someone. Now he did bring his dad up yes? I
say yes
now let him explain ..he claims he is with his dad but his dad his still here ?...I say yes
George explains that he is explaining he is with his dad spiritually.
This is signaling he is again the son that passed on .
He brings his mom up also that his folks are still here. He is telling him again he is the son that passed on.. But he
is telling him that grandparents are with him, George says that must be the others that are with him.
Now he does put a big heart in front of you...understand? I say yes
states he is your sweetheart but he states in a loving manner...and he states again he is your sweetheart in a
loving manner. Pushing this
he states romantically ..yes? and I say no I don't think so.
George says he is pushing this ..and then George says well alright I guess I am going to have to say that I made a
mistake. And take it that he means in affection. George says wait he is telling me he stated that he is
family...George says he is complaining to me that he already established that he is family and I just forgot. I have a
hard time with the heart sometimes ... I think the wrong way ..he is telling me again he already stated he is family I
just for got. Oh ok he also comes to you again in that affectionate manner with the sweetheart symbol and states
that you are also good friends that you share the heart in many ways ..friendship love affection as family. The soul
jokes we are not that liberated because George took it as romantically. but it is not.
He does again state he is the son that passed on ..yes he is saying he told me information correctly in the
beginning he got a little uppity with me he got feisty with me because he says he told me everything in the
beginning ...why did you scatter and then I asked him well what else did you tell me and the soul said I told you I
was the son that passed on and you took it the way you thought I meant it..George is saying sometimes the
hardest thing for him to do sometimes is to keep his two cents out of the session. So he is your son? I say yes...
and he says my mother is here she is right in front of you....
But he brings this up again he jokes that he is your little sweetheart.
That's why he was putting the symbol in front of you...
George is explaining that they will come to us in a manner that sometimes only we know what they are talking about
and George does not always know how to interpret it so we have to listen carefully and he has to be careful not to
add to what they are saying because then he will mess it up.
George says the soul is correct he did immediately say he was the son that passed and that he was family. and I
just messed it up
Now he speaks of a tragic passing yes? In the sense of his age as well as circumstances.
Now this is ironic but interesting ...he claims he knew he was going to pass on. And I say he claims what ?
And George repeats He claims he knew he was going to pass on. Now this does not mean he walked up to
someone and says I know I am going to die ...it could just mean that in the back of their minds he knew when he
got there that he knew this was where he was supposed to be.
Because he reports he had a very sudden passing. It is very interesting your son says he passes very young ..but
he would seem older? I say yes
It is funny ...he admits that is probably what was confusing my brain... I am talking to a young person but yet I feel
like I am taking to an older person. I would throw me off a little bit.So I am glad he explained that. I am glad he
explained that ..it explains to me why it feels like I am talking to a much older person.
He claims his passing is accidental yes? I say yes
Also emphasis that he did not suffer prior to his passing....He tells me it is a big hang up with you.That you have
obsessed in silence that his final moments were agonizing you play it in your mind over and over ..you play it in
your mind like an old re-run of a movie. He is telling you he did not agonize prior to his passing he did not suffer he
passes from one moment to another also this has nothing to do with a particular religion But St Joseph appears
next to you and St Joseph is the patron of a happy death ...that your sons passing was a peaceful one despite of
the circumstances.
Yeah your son speaks that there was injury to the head yes? I say yes
and he says he was gone. He moves instantly form one moment to the next. He keeps emphasize that it was no
ones fault. especially to you again. He wants to make sure you leave here knowing you did not fail as his mother.
Because he says you suffer in silence over his passing like you punish your self that it's your fault that you think
you blanked up. Your son cause he states you could not save him.
And as he says some body can tell you it's not your fault but you have to hear it from him. That's why he is saying
your hearing it from him.
At times he is concerned it's almost like you think he is mad at you. He keeps saying he is not mad at you... the
only thing that he brings up that your allowed to obsess about it that he loves you and you love him that your
allowed to think about all the time. Blaming yourself or holding your self responsible or thinking that you have failed
him is completely wrong thinking. And your son seems like the type of guy that tells it like it is. You would hear the
truth from him if he felt you had messed up he would let you know.
He say yeah that right I remember now like he is talking to him.....His dad is still on the earth because he calls out
to his father also wether his father believes in this or not so what ...he just calls out to him regardless... he jokes
and says that someday everyone will find out he is right as usual.
You son brings up indeed he had a short life but it was a very fulfilling life and admits to me that even when he was
here he was like very on the ball had his life like focused out somebody that was handling ten projects at once.
Again somebody who feels older than his years.
Again he can have a little fiery personality too yes?
I experienced that from the beginning when I messed up the sweetheart and forgot what he had said he got rather
fiery with me about not paying attention.
Now you have other family? because he calls out that he is the son and the brother. which he had done earlier
then I didn't say that right away because at that point I didn't know he was your son and I might have made the
mistake of thinking he was your brother.
But he is kinda mommas boy that's another reason for the sweetheart he is you little sweetheart. This is your little
sweetheart. The golden apple appears over your head which means he was the apple of momma's eye.He was
your golden boy.
At least when he explains this now I can understand why he kept coming to you in such a strong loving manner and
I started confusing it and thinking it was a romantic affiliation.
He keeps stating that he is alright and that he is in a safe and happy place , he is more concerned about you being
in a safe place emotionally Because as he states you suffer in silence you hold it in and constantly dwell upon it.
He does speak of you working yes? I say yes He is glad you do and you should stay because it is almost like you
thought you would be better off at home, but as he states if you have too much time to think you will do exactly that
at least it distracts you and keeps you focused Because as your son states he knows you just want to die but as
he brings up your not supposed to be there yet and you can always depend on him to tell it like it is.
He is not being insensitive to what your going through, but he is not going to come in and make up a fairy tale. He
says you feel he was cheated out of his life. he states he wasn't , he fulfilled his life and as he states and it is true it
is not the years of your life it is the life of your years.
He keeps insisting that the tragedy is an accident. Incase there was an uncertainty he keeps insisting the passing
is accidental . He sees it as a passport to get him the where he is supposed to go.
Also he knows that you were afraid of him being afraid over there which he seems like the kinda guy that would
make friends and find his way rather quickly which he has that's why he speaks of grandparents being with him
wether they be his or yours what ever just so you know that he is not alone.
Yeah again all your son cares about is that you come to the realization that you did not fail him as a mother. That is
all that is on his mind...!!! He does not really care about anything else he is not going to come in and go over it like
a score card like anything silly.
As he says it is more important that you know he is alright and in a safe and happy place and that he knows that
you love him and he loves you and that you did not fail him as a mother. He wants to put your mind and heart at
peace. Now he feels he has done that but the rest is up to you for you to absorb that.
There was a grandmother you were close with ? Because somebody comes forward I guess it would be like his
great grandmother or something , but somebody comes forward there's a grandmother there with him now it is
either his or one of yours...I am not sure because he is not telling me but she is one of the women in the room. And
he brings up a grandfather with him so again that's one of the other men that followed him in so there's other
people that are there with him most defiantly.
Now I am trying to make sure that I did ..but there is people back there that speak another language?
Grandparents or someone I heard another language in the background but who knows.
Yeah your son again specifies that he passed rather quickly. Gone from one moment to the next. There was that
injury to the head and he was gone. Also this is nothing to do with organized religion, But the blessed mother
keeps coming to you as one bereaved mother to another, someone that knows exactly what your going
through....appears around you as the mother of perpetual health does not matter if your catholic it is a spiritual
presence, you have actually prayed to her yes? I say yes
In your own way and it is funny it is not your cup of tea as your son tells me but again who else is going to
understand the way you feel better than a bereaved mother?
And as your son says his passing has turned your world completely upside down ....things will never be the same
again. Before you might have had your thought pattern organized in their neat little boxes but now everything has
been scattered so as your son says you turned to her because he knows your kinda ticked off at you know the
other side you know like your mad at God your kinda pissed off because you tried to do everything right then how
did this happen to my son.. its like your son says they can't interfere with our lives where they lead us around by
the nose so you turned and he knows you turned to the blessed mother in a comforting sense because she is
going to understand how you feel.
As he states she is going to keep you hanging on even though this is not part of your belief system . nor was it in
the past.
Your son says don't worry about him there he says you can put your head on your pillow tonight and know you
have one son who is alright and in a safe happy place.
and also you have other children ? I say yes
Because your son calls out he claims he is around very much like he is your guardian angel which should not
surprise you in the least. But he also states to mother but don't smother. He says not to over whelm them because
it is frightening to them that this happened as well
It becomes a scary situation.
but again as your son says you did not do anything wrong that this happened to him. it is like your picking on
yourself , that it is your fault that this happened where did you go wrong and as your son states he is more
concerned about your emotional state and that's why he is addressing it so intensely.
But he does again call to his dad , and family wether they believe it or not he could care less frankly he is very like
yeah ok fine what ever they will find out I am right some day anyway.
But he does embrace you with love and as long as you know he is alright and in a happy place things are easier.
but he tells me he is going to pull back cause another soul is coming in the room and they are ready for their turn
and they are letting him know he is talking a great deal which he like to do. he admits to me that he doesn't
/wouldn't have the patience to wait till the end of the night which doesn't surprise me came in first. The others In the
background are saying ok you have to move, so some body else can come forward.
But your son does embrace you with love and to absorb what he said.
I was told to bring you some thing let me find it ..... for petes sake then he found it.(a picture of the blessed mother
is what he gave me). It is a gift from your son he wants you to have it and a reassurance that he alright and at
peace. Again it is not an endorsement of religion because I know that's not your cup of tea.In any case that's from
him a spiritual gift. So that's from him with love. Because that's how she appeared near you.
And as he says every time you look upon it you will be re-informed of what he said tonight so your mind can be at
rest. And here is a focal point of prayer for you as well ( he gave me a book mark with a prayer for mothers who
are grieving) Cause as he jokes she is kinda like the only one your praying to everybody else you have had it with
..every body's been X ed off the list and it is so odd considering you were not brought up with it that that's were you
turned but again it makes perfect sense.
your son spoke about you having sleepless nights ....so that's a nice prayer that will help you on those sleepless
nights. As he said you have sleepless nights, so he says if your going to stay up that prayer is very comforting he
wants you to have that.
Again some body else is complaining he talks to much.
Again he embraces you with love along with the others and but he says again listen to what he said and know he is
with you. And he says until we meet again. And then he pulls back.
and that was the end of my session.
I wanted to share this information with you,
Lynette
10-6-05 from Christie
Sunny days seem to hurt the most
Wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
See your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughing in the rain
Still can't believe your gone
(Chorus:)
It ain't fair you died to young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing, no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder, who you'd be today
Would you see the world
Would you chase your dreams
Settle down with a family
I wonder what would you name your babies
Someday's the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
And I know it might sound crazy
(Chorus)
Today [3x]
Today [3x]
Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope
Is I know, I'll see you again someday
Someday, someday
This song brings tears to my eyes everytime I hear it especially
the first verse!! All I think about is Caleb!! And how his story
was cut way to short, but the funny thing is I think I know where
Caleb would be today!! he would be doing just as good as he
was before he was taken from us!! I know for a fact that Caleb
would have definitely made something amazing out of himself if
he would have just been given the opportunity to do so!!
Christie
Caleb!
What’s up? Not much going on here. Me and everyone else miss you a lot!!! One thing
that I regret a lot is our drifting apart after we rose up from 8th graders to high schoolers!
Although we weren’t that close, I still considered you to be a really really good friend . . .
No, wait, not a Friend, a Brother! Every time I’m in traffic and see a Sport Trac like your’s, I
look at the driver in hopes that it’s you, but, I am disappointed every time! I’ll never forget
that day . . . I was in the office, just had got back from getting lunch, and I heard the sirens
going down the road and I thought to my self that there must have been a bad wreck
somewhere nearby. I didn’t find out until the next day at school that it was you that I heard
the sirens going to rescue. I just wished that whole day after I found out that there was
something I could have done for you to prevent it from happening. There for about 2
weeks, all I could do after I saw your truck the day you died was just picture the whole
accident in my head. . . Like, how scared you must have felt when you saw that F-150
fixing to plow into the side of your lil’ truck, and seeing your body being thrown into the
passenger seat like a rag doll. You know what man, I’ve been talking to you mom, and well,
she’s taking it pretty hard . . . I’ve been trying to help her out, but there’s just only so much
that I can do. I just talked to her today and I told her that everything would be fine, and she
exclaimed that it wouldn’t. That just broke my heart! Caleb, I’m just glad that I got to know
you! You touched my life, like you did the lives of so many others. You were, no, you ARE
one special guy! I remember when you and Brittany first started dating in 8th grade, when I
first met you. I also remember when you two broke up on the Savannah Field trip. I hate to
say it, but I was actually glad that y’all did break up because I wanted to ask her out, but I
was too shy to do it and I never did. I’m glad, however, that you two did get back together.
Caleb, I’ll always remember "Gimme Head Bitch" and "Slurrrp" and "GIT-R-DONE"..... You
know what, I’ll always remember you, Christopher Bradley! Also, Caleb, I just want you to
know that ever sense the accident, I’ve been praying for you and everyone else... I’ve even
had y’all put on the prayer list at my church. Another thing, your death has changed me. I
am now more careful when I drive, and I am working on getting back to the place I once
was with my walk with GOD because there for a while, I was slipping. I started having a
short temper and using profanity. I miss you, and I still greave everyday. . . I found out at
school the day that they were going to take you off Life Support so I fought with the school
officials for about an hour until they finally let me leave to come to the hospital before you
passed . . . I was so worried that I was going to be too late, especially when I got in that
traffic jam. . . I then took a short cut and drove like a bat outta hell so I could hopefully get
the in time, but I was too late. After that, I started getting really paranoid and started driving
more cautiously because I didn’t want to end up in the same situation that you were in!
After you died, I got very depressed and had suicidal thoughts, but I just turned to GOD
and he’s been helping me get through this. I just want to thank you for the change you
made in my life!!!! Becky, Lesley, and I tried to get Justin to come with us to the viewing at
the Funeral Home here in Dawsonville, but he said that he didn’t want his last memory of
you to be of your lifeless body helplessly laying there right before it goes down into the
cold wet ground. Oh yeah, on a disappointing note, Chris quit school, but hopefully, he and
Justin and Justin’s new girlfriend and I are gonna get together and all hang out.
Well, I have to go for now Caleb. . . I’m looking forward to seeing you again.
Love ya Bro!
Casey Martin
What’s up? Not much going on here. Me and everyone else miss you a lot!!! One thing
that I regret a lot is our drifting apart after we rose up from 8th graders to high schoolers!
Although we weren’t that close, I still considered you to be a really really good friend . . .
No, wait, not a Friend, a Brother! Every time I’m in traffic and see a Sport Trac like your’s, I
look at the driver in hopes that it’s you, but, I am disappointed every time! I’ll never forget
that day . . . I was in the office, just had got back from getting lunch, and I heard the sirens
going down the road and I thought to my self that there must have been a bad wreck
somewhere nearby. I didn’t find out until the next day at school that it was you that I heard
the sirens going to rescue. I just wished that whole day after I found out that there was
something I could have done for you to prevent it from happening. There for about 2
weeks, all I could do after I saw your truck the day you died was just picture the whole
accident in my head. . . Like, how scared you must have felt when you saw that F-150
fixing to plow into the side of your lil’ truck, and seeing your body being thrown into the
passenger seat like a rag doll. You know what man, I’ve been talking to you mom, and well,
she’s taking it pretty hard . . . I’ve been trying to help her out, but there’s just only so much
that I can do. I just talked to her today and I told her that everything would be fine, and she
exclaimed that it wouldn’t. That just broke my heart! Caleb, I’m just glad that I got to know
you! You touched my life, like you did the lives of so many others. You were, no, you ARE
one special guy! I remember when you and Brittany first started dating in 8th grade, when I
first met you. I also remember when you two broke up on the Savannah Field trip. I hate to
say it, but I was actually glad that y’all did break up because I wanted to ask her out, but I
was too shy to do it and I never did. I’m glad, however, that you two did get back together.
Caleb, I’ll always remember "Gimme Head Bitch" and "Slurrrp" and "GIT-R-DONE"..... You
know what, I’ll always remember you, Christopher Bradley! Also, Caleb, I just want you to
know that ever sense the accident, I’ve been praying for you and everyone else... I’ve even
had y’all put on the prayer list at my church. Another thing, your death has changed me. I
am now more careful when I drive, and I am working on getting back to the place I once
was with my walk with GOD because there for a while, I was slipping. I started having a
short temper and using profanity. I miss you, and I still greave everyday. . . I found out at
school the day that they were going to take you off Life Support so I fought with the school
officials for about an hour until they finally let me leave to come to the hospital before you
passed . . . I was so worried that I was going to be too late, especially when I got in that
traffic jam. . . I then took a short cut and drove like a bat outta hell so I could hopefully get
the in time, but I was too late. After that, I started getting really paranoid and started driving
more cautiously because I didn’t want to end up in the same situation that you were in!
After you died, I got very depressed and had suicidal thoughts, but I just turned to GOD
and he’s been helping me get through this. I just want to thank you for the change you
made in my life!!!! Becky, Lesley, and I tried to get Justin to come with us to the viewing at
the Funeral Home here in Dawsonville, but he said that he didn’t want his last memory of
you to be of your lifeless body helplessly laying there right before it goes down into the
cold wet ground. Oh yeah, on a disappointing note, Chris quit school, but hopefully, he and
Justin and Justin’s new girlfriend and I are gonna get together and all hang out.
Well, I have to go for now Caleb. . . I’m looking forward to seeing you again.
Love ya Bro!
Casey Martin
Caleb, I am writing this to let you know how crazy it has gotten down here, as i am sure you
know because you are with us!!
Caleb, there's friends not speaking, friends jealous of their friends. Its a mad house down
here.
You would think after you being taken from us so quick they would realize time is so short, and
you never realize what lays ahead.
I just wish it could go back to the days of cutting up and wrestling in the room, the hall,
downstairs anywhere y'all would land!! But it seems those good days went with you!
I don't know what to do to help them, to try and get everybody talking and taking care f each
other again!
Till next time
love ya bud
Tammie
11-28-05
know because you are with us!!
Caleb, there's friends not speaking, friends jealous of their friends. Its a mad house down
here.
You would think after you being taken from us so quick they would realize time is so short, and
you never realize what lays ahead.
I just wish it could go back to the days of cutting up and wrestling in the room, the hall,
downstairs anywhere y'all would land!! But it seems those good days went with you!
I don't know what to do to help them, to try and get everybody talking and taking care f each
other again!
Till next time
love ya bud
Tammie
11-28-05
May 10th 2006
LYNETTE,
I JUST THOUGHT I WOULD DROP YOU A LINE. I HAVE NOT
SEEN MUCH ON THE COMPUTER FROM YOU SO I DECIDED TO
TELL YOU WHAT I HAVE BEEN THINKING.IM HAVING SUCH A
HARD DAY I HAVE CRIED ALL DAY. ALL I CAN DO IS THINK
ABOUT CALEB AND THAT WRECK. I HAVE WENT BACK OVER
IT
IN MY MIND FOR DAYS AND CANT FIGURE IT OUT. I STILL
THINK JAMES KNOWS MORE THAN HE IS WILLING TO TELL.I
CAN STILL SEE HIM NOT LOOKING AT ME WHEN I ASK HIM
WHAT HAPPEN. HE NEVER WOULD LOOK ME IN THE EYES
WHEN I
ASK HIM ANYTHING ABOUT IT. BUT SOMEDAY IT WILL ALL
COME OUT AND I HOPE FOR HIM HE WAS TELLING THE
TRUTH.I
GUESS IM STARTING TO GET MAD MORE AS TIME GOES ON.
MAYBE I SHOULDNT. BUT I SIT AT HOME BY MYSELF AND ALL
I CAN THINK ABOUT IS MY SON AND IT HURTS ME TO THE
BONE. I AM AT HARRIS FORD TONIGHT AND IT IS ABOUT 1:OO
AM AND I JUST CANT THINK STRAIT ANYMORE.I AM CRYING AS
I SPEAK BECAUSE I MISS CALEB SO MUCH. I THINK IT GROWS
MORE INTENSE EVERY SINGLE DAY. WELL I GUESS I WILL GO
AS I GOT ALL OF THAT OFF MY CHEST. I KNEW YOU WOULD
UNDERSTAND MY VENTING. MOST PEOPLE DONT.
GARRY
LYNETTE,
I JUST THOUGHT I WOULD DROP YOU A LINE. I HAVE NOT
SEEN MUCH ON THE COMPUTER FROM YOU SO I DECIDED TO
TELL YOU WHAT I HAVE BEEN THINKING.IM HAVING SUCH A
HARD DAY I HAVE CRIED ALL DAY. ALL I CAN DO IS THINK
ABOUT CALEB AND THAT WRECK. I HAVE WENT BACK OVER
IT
IN MY MIND FOR DAYS AND CANT FIGURE IT OUT. I STILL
THINK JAMES KNOWS MORE THAN HE IS WILLING TO TELL.I
CAN STILL SEE HIM NOT LOOKING AT ME WHEN I ASK HIM
WHAT HAPPEN. HE NEVER WOULD LOOK ME IN THE EYES
WHEN I
ASK HIM ANYTHING ABOUT IT. BUT SOMEDAY IT WILL ALL
COME OUT AND I HOPE FOR HIM HE WAS TELLING THE
TRUTH.I
GUESS IM STARTING TO GET MAD MORE AS TIME GOES ON.
MAYBE I SHOULDNT. BUT I SIT AT HOME BY MYSELF AND ALL
I CAN THINK ABOUT IS MY SON AND IT HURTS ME TO THE
BONE. I AM AT HARRIS FORD TONIGHT AND IT IS ABOUT 1:OO
AM AND I JUST CANT THINK STRAIT ANYMORE.I AM CRYING AS
I SPEAK BECAUSE I MISS CALEB SO MUCH. I THINK IT GROWS
MORE INTENSE EVERY SINGLE DAY. WELL I GUESS I WILL GO
AS I GOT ALL OF THAT OFF MY CHEST. I KNEW YOU WOULD
UNDERSTAND MY VENTING. MOST PEOPLE DONT.
GARRY
May 11 2006
Garry
I don't think it is venting ......it is your pissed off that he is dead. Me too!!!! I have so much
anger I have to cap myself all the time. Why our boy ? Why ? Why ? Why?
I have to tell you this morning I was in my car and turned onto the highway and I looked in
my rear view mirror and I for a second or more seen him riding his bike like he used to do
behind me!! I was stunned for a minute thinking I was seeing things ......I am telling you I
have something going on that is making me nuts .....I feel him in the room, I am starting to
see him. I am not crazy. I am actually feel better this past two weeks than I have in a while
....I am not sure if it is because I am living back at my house or what and he is staying
around me more? But I know what I seen and it was Caleb in a blue T-shirt .....and that is
one thing I told someone a few days ago ...it is hard to go into the subdivision because I
can just see Caleb there chasing me down on his bike .....well out of the blue this morning
I seen it for real. In my heart I know he is here all the time he is with us in a way that we
just can't know. The dream I had last week and then this morning seeing him in the street!
He is telling me he is ok.
He has friends and our family all there with him and he just wants us to be ok.
One thing I have been doing is talking to him when I feel him there and when I don't ....I
felt him poking me in the leg the other night just as if he was there in body and I without
even thinking turned and said what Caleb? And then realized he was not there in body but
in spirit........his good nature and loving tender self is here with me all the time.
No doubt in my mind.......
I think James has his own burden to bear .....but honestly I don't think there is anything to
tell.....they were just out hanging out like boys do and I think James can't look at either of
us because of the tremendous guilt that it was Caleb and not him that died. He feels like
why didn't he die instead just like we do .....those two boys loved each other and James
would have done anything and still would to make it different.
I have told myself a million times but I might could have changed it ..I might could have
done something .....but no matter what his journey was over. He came here for a reason
and whatever it was it is done and he went back to were we knew him before.....there is no
doubt that we knew him before he got here, and we will see him again, and he is going to
be the first face I see when I die and he will probably say "what took you so long I been
having a blast here" or "dang momma why you gotta be like that " or " Hey momma your
home"
I can just see when he went back and him telling all the funny stories to all the people that
are there with him now and them all being happy talking with him all the time ...he was so
funny and happy.
Can't you just see him and your pa paw Ernie telling stories about their time here. Cause
they didn't know each other and my dad talking to him about what all he did here ...the
hunting fishing and all that my dad loved to do.
And I am sure he is telling them what a great life he had here with us ..you being his dad
and me being his crazy momma.
Like you the hard times are being alone ...but I have been going home and reading books
about anything I can get my hands on about personal growth and our selves and what this
all means to us.
If nothing else while he was here he taught me compassion and true love....I was a hard
hearted woman before he grew up so tender hearted ..I never could understand why he
cried so much ....somewhere in that there was a life lesson for me. I have learned to
accept the things I can not change and go on.
I don't think I will ever be ok or over it or anything like that I have just had to learn to put it
in my heart and think of him and smile....inside and out.
I am crying so hard right now I can't even see.....but I do it with a smile on my face for my
boy. I will gladly accept death when the time comes because I will get to take the journey
Caleb has taken before me and I am not afraid of it.
You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop
to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I have lived through this horror. I
can take the next thing that comes along.' You must do the thing you think you cannot do.
Eleanor Roosevelt
Garry we have seen the face or fear and we are growing from it.....I hope you see that.
Caleb would be having a fit for me crying all the time....when I cry at my house he starts
whipping around my room and banging on the walls and making all kinds of things happen
.......he wants us to be happy and continue our journey till he sees us again.
He is with us now ...and I think if I didn't know I would see him again ....then I could lay
down and stop breathing because what is left ? NOTHING. and we know that is not true
.....I know I will see my boy again and so do you.
I think you guys must have been the best of friends on the other side ......and you took
this path so you could see each other along the way.....
You know deep inside me I knew he would not be here forever with me. I have thought
about it so many times I was so over protective and worried all the time and thought about
it and something in me knew he was not here for the duration. I can't explain it but I knew
it. When I got that phone call it was as if I was expecting it. All I could think was please God
let me see him first .....let his daddy see him first ...please don't let him go before I get to
see him.
All I could say all the way to the hospital was Caleb don't you die before I get
there........Caleb you breathe till your daddy gets here. I knew he was going.
I have blamed, cursed God, cried and screamed and been so angry at everything and
everyone ......I think through it all I am a better person.
I have feared since the day he was born that he might die and it was a fear in me always
and it happened. I have had to face it and mostly alone and that fear has nearly killed me.
But I am learning to live without him physically here.
James is a mess I talked to him last night online for a long time ......He didn't say it but he
has guilt Garry just like us .....I know he thinks why did he get to live and someone like
Caleb "someone he thought the world of" have to die? He thinks he is worthless and no
one cares that he lived. He lost Caleb too....and he lost his whole way of living, he lived
with us ...he spent more time with Caleb than anyone more than me or you ever did
...they got up everyday together had breakfast , lunch and dinner together and played
vids and went out and hung out together everyday .....if Caleb got gas James got gas .....if
Caleb had the flu , James had the flu, if one got a cold the other got a cold.....I was
doctoring and feeding them together all the time. I am sure James felt lost and alone more
than any of us and he has had no one .....except his mom and sister. That whole bunch of
kids does not even talk to each other anymore.
I deserted him along with everyone else.....he is lost and alone. Just like us.
Love you
L
Garry
I don't think it is venting ......it is your pissed off that he is dead. Me too!!!! I have so much
anger I have to cap myself all the time. Why our boy ? Why ? Why ? Why?
I have to tell you this morning I was in my car and turned onto the highway and I looked in
my rear view mirror and I for a second or more seen him riding his bike like he used to do
behind me!! I was stunned for a minute thinking I was seeing things ......I am telling you I
have something going on that is making me nuts .....I feel him in the room, I am starting to
see him. I am not crazy. I am actually feel better this past two weeks than I have in a while
....I am not sure if it is because I am living back at my house or what and he is staying
around me more? But I know what I seen and it was Caleb in a blue T-shirt .....and that is
one thing I told someone a few days ago ...it is hard to go into the subdivision because I
can just see Caleb there chasing me down on his bike .....well out of the blue this morning
I seen it for real. In my heart I know he is here all the time he is with us in a way that we
just can't know. The dream I had last week and then this morning seeing him in the street!
He is telling me he is ok.
He has friends and our family all there with him and he just wants us to be ok.
One thing I have been doing is talking to him when I feel him there and when I don't ....I
felt him poking me in the leg the other night just as if he was there in body and I without
even thinking turned and said what Caleb? And then realized he was not there in body but
in spirit........his good nature and loving tender self is here with me all the time.
No doubt in my mind.......
I think James has his own burden to bear .....but honestly I don't think there is anything to
tell.....they were just out hanging out like boys do and I think James can't look at either of
us because of the tremendous guilt that it was Caleb and not him that died. He feels like
why didn't he die instead just like we do .....those two boys loved each other and James
would have done anything and still would to make it different.
I have told myself a million times but I might could have changed it ..I might could have
done something .....but no matter what his journey was over. He came here for a reason
and whatever it was it is done and he went back to were we knew him before.....there is no
doubt that we knew him before he got here, and we will see him again, and he is going to
be the first face I see when I die and he will probably say "what took you so long I been
having a blast here" or "dang momma why you gotta be like that " or " Hey momma your
home"
I can just see when he went back and him telling all the funny stories to all the people that
are there with him now and them all being happy talking with him all the time ...he was so
funny and happy.
Can't you just see him and your pa paw Ernie telling stories about their time here. Cause
they didn't know each other and my dad talking to him about what all he did here ...the
hunting fishing and all that my dad loved to do.
And I am sure he is telling them what a great life he had here with us ..you being his dad
and me being his crazy momma.
Like you the hard times are being alone ...but I have been going home and reading books
about anything I can get my hands on about personal growth and our selves and what this
all means to us.
If nothing else while he was here he taught me compassion and true love....I was a hard
hearted woman before he grew up so tender hearted ..I never could understand why he
cried so much ....somewhere in that there was a life lesson for me. I have learned to
accept the things I can not change and go on.
I don't think I will ever be ok or over it or anything like that I have just had to learn to put it
in my heart and think of him and smile....inside and out.
I am crying so hard right now I can't even see.....but I do it with a smile on my face for my
boy. I will gladly accept death when the time comes because I will get to take the journey
Caleb has taken before me and I am not afraid of it.
You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop
to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I have lived through this horror. I
can take the next thing that comes along.' You must do the thing you think you cannot do.
Eleanor Roosevelt
Garry we have seen the face or fear and we are growing from it.....I hope you see that.
Caleb would be having a fit for me crying all the time....when I cry at my house he starts
whipping around my room and banging on the walls and making all kinds of things happen
.......he wants us to be happy and continue our journey till he sees us again.
He is with us now ...and I think if I didn't know I would see him again ....then I could lay
down and stop breathing because what is left ? NOTHING. and we know that is not true
.....I know I will see my boy again and so do you.
I think you guys must have been the best of friends on the other side ......and you took
this path so you could see each other along the way.....
You know deep inside me I knew he would not be here forever with me. I have thought
about it so many times I was so over protective and worried all the time and thought about
it and something in me knew he was not here for the duration. I can't explain it but I knew
it. When I got that phone call it was as if I was expecting it. All I could think was please God
let me see him first .....let his daddy see him first ...please don't let him go before I get to
see him.
All I could say all the way to the hospital was Caleb don't you die before I get
there........Caleb you breathe till your daddy gets here. I knew he was going.
I have blamed, cursed God, cried and screamed and been so angry at everything and
everyone ......I think through it all I am a better person.
I have feared since the day he was born that he might die and it was a fear in me always
and it happened. I have had to face it and mostly alone and that fear has nearly killed me.
But I am learning to live without him physically here.
James is a mess I talked to him last night online for a long time ......He didn't say it but he
has guilt Garry just like us .....I know he thinks why did he get to live and someone like
Caleb "someone he thought the world of" have to die? He thinks he is worthless and no
one cares that he lived. He lost Caleb too....and he lost his whole way of living, he lived
with us ...he spent more time with Caleb than anyone more than me or you ever did
...they got up everyday together had breakfast , lunch and dinner together and played
vids and went out and hung out together everyday .....if Caleb got gas James got gas .....if
Caleb had the flu , James had the flu, if one got a cold the other got a cold.....I was
doctoring and feeding them together all the time. I am sure James felt lost and alone more
than any of us and he has had no one .....except his mom and sister. That whole bunch of
kids does not even talk to each other anymore.
I deserted him along with everyone else.....he is lost and alone. Just like us.
Love you
L
April 13 2006
i found this on the internet and i would like it if you could put it on his site
for me
please and thank you
-Meg
After all is said and done,
I still think you're amazing.
I still cherish every moment I spent with you,
every smile you brought to my face.
I'll be forever thankful
that someone like you was brought into my life,
even if you had to be taken away too soon.
See, you were my miracle.
You were the fairytale I got to live
I just want it back....
i found this on the internet and i would like it if you could put it on his site
for me
please and thank you
-Meg
After all is said and done,
I still think you're amazing.
I still cherish every moment I spent with you,
every smile you brought to my face.
I'll be forever thankful
that someone like you was brought into my life,
even if you had to be taken away too soon.
See, you were my miracle.
You were the fairytale I got to live
I just want it back....
Hey Caleb,
I just wanted to say hey and that I miss you a lot. At first I played it off like you just weren't going
to come in for the summer like you normally did but when I moved and found old pictures and
things from the times we spent together it hit home. I miss your happy go lucky personality and
wish I could have told you goodbye and actually told you in person how much you meant to me. I
will never forget all the crazy times Jack, you, lacy and me had together. I think of you almost
everyday and I'm glad to know your in a better place. I love you Caleb and never will forget you!
~ Samantha
added 8-17-06
I just wanted to say hey and that I miss you a lot. At first I played it off like you just weren't going
to come in for the summer like you normally did but when I moved and found old pictures and
things from the times we spent together it hit home. I miss your happy go lucky personality and
wish I could have told you goodbye and actually told you in person how much you meant to me. I
will never forget all the crazy times Jack, you, lacy and me had together. I think of you almost
everyday and I'm glad to know your in a better place. I love you Caleb and never will forget you!
~ Samantha
added 8-17-06